Let’s take a crosscut, and peak a little what my life was approximately year ago. I was someone who was a bit in deep waters, and needed to get back to surface. I made a lot of changes in my life and thought about the life I was living and how was I doing it. There was pretty much nothing I was proud about.
I started to make decisions, so I would become better version of my self. The first thing was to stop being such wuss.
Should I ? Could I ?
-Naah…. Not like it would work…
Yep, need to stop that. There is endless amounts of possibilities and I’m going to stop saying ”No” and ”Maybe”. As ”Maybe” also means no. Okay I’m still really logical person, so I want to think things through, but what’s the worst that could happen if you take a little chance or a little leap of faith every now and then? You might actually learn something. Or have a great experience…. Who would want that?
During the past year I’ve been hurt really bad, and went through surgery, I’ve been living in middle of horrible chaos and renovation. I’ve been traveling more than in my whole lifetime. I’ve been saying ”Yes, why not” more than ever before. I’ve graduated and I’ve learned a lot about myself alone and with help of others. I started to take more photographs, and write. And I stopped caring about expectations other people had about me. The best decision I’ve ever made.
Yet, there is one day in a year that makes me doubt about every desicion I’ve ever made. I know there is another big change coming up, right around corner and even if I’m excited and I know it will push me forward today I doubt also that.
So, I’m trying to forget my doubts and enjoy my traditional loner beer in the harbor of the soon-to-be-ex hometown.
Cheers!
