We all define SUCCESS differently.
But what is success?
Hello, awesome friends and readers! It's great to be back! It's been a year or two since I last shared my story. Life got busy, especially after college graduation. Guess what? Reality didn't quite match my expectations. I thought life would adjust to our desires, but it's more like a give-and-take.
It's not just about what we think, but what we do to make our desires a reality.
Story time!
Before graduation, I prepared for all the requirements, rushing my lungs out lol, to make it to the list of graduates and we happily made it! Unfortunately, a month before graduation, our grandmother on my mother's side passed away.
Graduation day was amazing – everyone was beaming, excited, and full of hope. We were all hoping to become successful and productive, becoming the best version of ourselves.
After graduation, reality hit hard. The kind of pressure that causes my overthinking and what-ifs. Fear of messing up in my future job – I was stagnant like I never planned to leave home. Those college days of overthinking never left my estate and things got worse. I bounced from job to job – landed one near home, but left after 3 months to pursue something else.
Unexpected events happened. My grandmother got ill and passed away months later. Then, days after her funeral, my cousin had a fatal motorcycle accident, needing ORIF surgery. Helping with his medical needs became my priority, giving me a reason to put job hunting on hold. That went on for over a week until he recovered and was discharged.
I'm feeling stuck, hiding out even after finishing my degree. I'm scared to step out and chase the success I envisioned. Stuck at home, unable to support my family, I'm broken – is it about finding the perfect moment or mustering the courage to face my doubts?
I wanted success – to provide, earn, and enjoy the fruits of my labor. Maybe I'll focus on timing and self-preparation. I'll wait for the right moment while gearing up to face whatever comes next. That way, I can be useful to myself and my loved ones. I know I talk a lot but lack action. I'm trying to face my fears, and that's why I'm here – to get stuff off my chest. I haven't told my closest friends or family 'coz I don't wanna be a burden. They've got their own stuff going on, I don't wanna add to it.
My friend Erica once told me "it's okay to take small steps. Never rush things." And I really felt that. Right now, I'm home, planning to start job hunting online soon after I finish some stuff. Guess I'm waiting for luck to strike or what? But honestly, I'm happy. I just can't help thinking about my future, how I can help my siblings and ease my parents' struggles supporting our big family.
Success is different for everyone, right? Do you agree? Write your thoughts, recommendations and insights about this story if you are interested. May you support my every stories here. I'm very much grateful. Thank you for reading. Love lots!
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