As you know, after years of stress and compromising my health over a passion that wore off eventually, right before my graduation in college, I've finally come to my senses and decided to choose myself.
To start with, instead of attending my graduation ceremony, I went for a checkup at a physio clinic. After the diagnosis for my always aching back, I agreed to their program. Starting next from thereon, I needed to attend my physiotherapy sessions for twice a week in a month.
My physiotherapy era...
While my batchmates were busy preparing for the graduation, I was occupied with work and checkups. Family asked me why I wouldn't when that's what I have worked hard for over the years. They said I was already at the final step, but I backed out on the last minute. They had a point, but for me it's just a whole day ceremony that would bring me pain for a whole month. It's not worth sacrificing my self again when I lose more than what I can gain.
Those years are enough to teach me a good lesson. Besides, I've already completed what I've started. I got what I wanted which is to earn a diploma and be the first person in our family to break the curse. Ceremony is just a tradition, but the records are irrefutable. That's what matters to me.
My first sessions started actually the same week of the graduation. I was even happier and more relieved every time I got out of the clinic because the pain and tension subsides. I worked overtime the next day after that and I'm still fine. Then, on my rest days, I have been able to walk around downtown looking for clothes that I could wear for workplace party without complaining that my back hurts or my legs are trembling from exhaustion.
Being free the pain made me more ecstatic than the thought of graduating with service awards. I missed a lot of things because I need save my energy since I was exhausting myself for student duties and influencing other students with my passion for four whole years. Not just exhausted energy, wasted time, unrecognized efforts, but I've drained my wallet investing in a passion where I didn't get anything in return.
So here I am now, choosing myself and family more than anything else. I'm reconnecting the bond where I should have strengthened instead of wasting my time on unnecessary duties. I know it's not to late for me to turn around and keep things. Just like anyone who was driven away in the wrong path, I'm coming back to redeem myself at this time. God bless me on my new journey. 馃挌馃尡
