Kaltain Future Dream.

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I live in a world, where I question the purpose of everything and why I have to behave a certain way as I go by. What is the purpose of my life here? Why am I even here exactly? What do I have to give or do to make my time here worthwhile? Why do I even have to do anything at all? Sometimes life hits me as some repetitive cycle that I have to partake in to get by. But why really?

These questions and more, my mind throws at me every chance it gets. I guess some of these questions I might never get the answer to but I promise myself to live a life I would be proud of. So even if it is all some cosmic big joke at least i would have my laugh.

I am Kaltain and i have a dream, i must have said this out loud because John is asking “what must that dream be?” I sigh, not willing to share and say “i will know when i start living it”. John looks at me like I am crazy and just says “Do not forget to write the report on the just concluded vulnerability assessment”. I plastered a big smile on my face “Of course i won't forget, we are to present it to Zade tomorrow”. John does not say anything again and walks back to the office. I stay on the bench a few more minutes staring at people as they walk by, some gisting with their pals and others just moving files in hand, then I look at my watch and realize lunch break is over by 10 minutes already and quickly make my way inside.

I sit at my desk and proceed to complete the report, highlighting the vulnerable ports that need to be made unaccessible to those outside the network. I send it to John to take a look and before closing hours he suddenly walks up to me with a serious expression and say “I hope you find your dream”.

After my day at work, I head home. Popcorn in a bowl and wine in my glass. I continue to ponder my purpose here. And I say out loud “I just want to do something that matters to my soul, help people”. After I empty my bowl of popcorn and feed my cat some milk i head to bed but before I sleep I go through my mail and see that I have been accepted in the hacktosave catch the flag event I chuckle all giddy that I get to participate until I notice the other words written in small fonts.

“But it's past 2am why would they put it so early when people could be asleep”, i say to no one. Not feeling sleepy I get my laptop and securely connect to the IP address. I searched around for the file and it took me a while but I found it. I read everything it contained and I smiled, this time it was a real smile. I have been accepted into a secret organization whose sole purpose was to fight against crime and bad government helping those who are oppressed. I felt it in my bones then, this was what I wanted, this is a dream worth living for.

“This is a good thing” I said to myself and suddenly my future no longer terrified me.

The End!

^{Inspired by the latest prompt terrified to participate read here}