Today I'm going to be talking about perception :)
Untill I, I guess changed my mindset in a way which I will touch on in a moment. I belive that god has a plan. I belive that everything we do wether its deciding if we want to go to Uni or something as small as what cereal we decide to eat for breakfast I belive that everything big or small god had planned out for us across our life!
A while ago I got into a dark space, I was depressed all of the time, diddnt see any positive things in anything and took little enjoyment in anything I was doing that that day. I honestly felt like the world was ending and I was begining to scare myself in a way I guess. By the ways I was talking or thinkng about myself e.g "why and I even here" or "I dont deserve to be on this earth" or even suidal thaughts and self harm.
After bing in this space for a while I began to watch a YouTuber called FouseyTube or Yousef Erikat even though he is of a completely different religion to me I did get me thinking about my religion and what I tuly belive in and how he was conducting himself with his positivity and outlook and I took some of that and put it into my own life. (he helped me so much, If one day I ever got to meet him I wouldnt even have to explain how much he has helped me I would just give him a massive hug and it would explain for me!)
Honestly I could sit here tying for days but here are a few things that ive learent, or a few ways I conduct myself because if your someone watching this and you feel as if you have none to talk to, none around you and you feel like your whole life it just falling apart. Im here to tell you..
It dose get better and I know this is preached all of the time but im not just saying it I truly mean IT DOSE GET BETTER. You need to go find something you love that makes you happy to help you to get out of your "funk" for me it was watching Yousef everyday in his vlogs.
I truly hope this did help somene and even though you feel like your alone and none around you understands which trust me I have felt for the last 2 and a half years there are probably people going though not the same but verry simlar situations.
Thankyou for reading this far and I hope even if this helped just one person out there just remember.
It dose get better. x
