The crisp autumn leaves swirl around me in the wind as I sit on the bench. The bustling college campus is alive with a symphony of sounds, each one joining together in a harmonious melody and I let myself soak it all in, as I reflect on the changing of seasons.
Change. It's been a constant lately. New faces, new classes, and an overwhelming amount of uncertainty. It's only natural to feel uncertain about myself amidst all this change, right?
Eating here outside isn’t something I usually do, but it does give me a moment to reflect on things. Two years ago, I could have never imagined myself here - pursuing this degree, working on these projects - it all seemed so far-fetched, almost impossible. I can still vividly recall sitting in my childhood bedroom, staring at the plain walls, wondering what my future would hold. The idea of college was once just an abstract dream, something I saw on TV shows. So many plans and dreams, and now this is my reality. Just like that, everything has changed.
Every day seems to bring something new, leaving me with a constant stream of questions and self-doubt. Am I handling this correctly? Is this truly the right direction for me? These thoughts flutter through my mind like the changing autumn breeze. Despite the uncertainty, there is also a curious thrill in the air. The unknown may be intimidating, but it also holds so much potential for something new, something even better.
It’s not like I am the same person in that old bedroom, dreaming of what could be. Creating, writing, managing, and leading- words that I never would have associated with myself before, are second nature now.
The little voice in the back of my head speaks up, whispering doubts and insecurities, but I block it out by focusing on the noises around me. That place it once occupied in my mind will soon be a distant memory. There’s no place for that here, not with what I’d lose if I give it attention.
Uncertainty is part of the journey. It means I'm pushing my boundaries, stepping out of my comfort zone, and embracing the unknown. It guides me towards a future that’s yet to unfold.
Welp, that’s enough existential thoughts for the day, I think to myself as I turn on some music. As if on cue, a sudden drizzle begins, ruining my sandwich. Oh well, that's life.
