This week has been filled with religion for me. I started it by rewatching "Good Omens", an adaptation of a story created by Neil Gaiman and Terry Pratchet with Michael Sheen and David Tennant, which I thoroughly recommend. Then I began watching a 2016 show called "The Young Pope" with Jude Law and it's been quite the experience for me. I've enjoyed it enormously and it's made be reflect quite a bit on the subject of faith. In the meantime, I've also established the concept of my new Mage: The Awakening story set on a version (or actually, several versions) of my city, and I'm almost done with the characters. Should be ready to narrate it next week. I also went to a nearby park with a friend recently to start training calisthenics and my upper body hurts a lot right now, but it's the good pain of time well-spent.
I've felt driven by my purpose with increasing intensity of late and I'm thankful for that. Haven't been doing many readings except the daily ones (first time in months that I pull five Runes in a week, though I didn't post all of them here,) and an Astrological Chart for a friend living in Spain which took me a while to finish. Haven't found any regular influx of money either, but it's ok. I've been applying the Taoist philosophy of wu wei more and more of late and have stopped striving or struggling for things. Whatever comes will happen naturally, I just want to do my service in whatever form I can and right now, that involves connecting with a bunch of people in my country's gaming community and making a name for myself once more.
It's been drilled into us that the only way we can get stuff done in this world is by working hard. I don't subscribe to that anymore. In my experience, if I have to work hard to get something, specifically recognition, capital or material goods, chances are I'm not meant to have it. The only thing that I'm always willing to make effort for is understanding and improving myself and, safe for the increasing physical activity, not even that is requiring such an intense investment from me right now. So I'm just enjoying my life and opening up to receive the blessings that the Universe sends my way. My heart is beating strongly, my mind is unclouded by doubts like never before and I'm certain that I'm playing the role that I'm meant to play. That's all. I don't feel the need to know how things will develop or the destination I'm heading towards. This Now is all I want to perceive.
Sounds nice, doesn't it? Well, as some of you who have read my posts here for the past couple of years, it's taken me tremendous sacrifice to get here, that's why I'm so certain now, that's why I surrender to this knowledge. I've left many things behind and paid my fair share for this fortune. I accept it with gratitude. Turns out that, as strange as it may seem, we have to authorize ourselves to live freely and happily. We're wired for struggle and pain, joy and tranquility are such weird feelings for us that it can take lifetimes to learn how to live with them.
But I can now, so can you, so can everyone else in this world. I'm as certain of that as I am of anything.
If you do not know which route to choose at the crossroads, remember that your gifts and talents were given to you for the benefit of others, a treasure that is kept away is lost. Skepticism is prudent, but rejecting the help that is offered to you or refusing to receive the kindness of others is inadequate; no encounter in the path is accidental. Light gives you clarity to see what is genuine, take fortitude from honesty and the way will be shown to you. Suspend any attempt to generate connections with those who are not grateful, call your energy back to you and redirect it to more useful and auspicious channels. Your greatest guarantee is this life that you live, the body that you inhabit, the mind that you use, the emotions that you feel; let nothing prevent you from appreciating the beauty of this moment.
