She wished if she could unlove some people in her life for the way they treated her. She felt as if she died a long time back because whatever she did, it was all worthless. How can people possibly hurt someone so many times? Of course, they get chances over chances because they mean something to someone. Actually, a lot to someone.
She wished she could erase all the happy moments with that person, so it could affect and hurt a little less maybe. It's not happening. She did not expect it to turn out in this way. Things were supposed to be good and lovely to spend time with. It was all going backwards.
She was losing all.
Some relationships may not turn out the way you want, but it make you stronger.