I have come back after almost an year.
Maybe I was too happy to write things out, because I had someone who would listen, and I still do. But, yeah there's always a "but".
Things haven't been good for the past few days and its gotten so worse, that you see here I am pouring it out to all of you who don't know me, and I just feel so open and carefree where no one would judge me.
I have been blamed of stealing things, and just not mere small things, actual big gadgets I am talking about and the person whom I love the most had been asked not to talk to a person like me. Of course, why would anybody want to talk to someone like this, is it?
The pun is he is in love with me. Like head over heels we say. And I don't know how to face him. It's so weird that I am feeling what if I did, so you wouldn't talk to me? What if it was some family member? We disown them or we don't tell it to the world that we are related? Why with your love?
I always thought that you would proudly hold my hand infront of everyone and tell them you love me, but there you are changing my name so no one knows that I even exist in your life. It doesn't matter to me, but the reason you doing it, it does. It's killing me from inside, I can't even explain how.
It's like maybe I should start doing things I am blamed of and then face all these.
I am crying to sleep, I am waking up crying. My eyes have become so heavy, I feel like dying.
It's not you. It's me. It's all me. It's because of my misunderstanding and I don't think anyone would believe me.
I want from you all to tell me, if it's okay to be hidden like this, or is it not?
Is it okay to make mistakes or I should be in hell by now?
Should he still love me or should we just get apart?
Is it all worth it?
