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This is probably going to be my first post in this community and a lot (just kidding a few) of people told me to post (or can post) so which is why I am doing this ( @thekittygirl mam, @shadowspub mam, @zoe01, and @treasuree) (it all happened in the @dreemport discord)(this is from my deepest feelings feel free to read). I don't know what I am going to write but I hope that I do not write anything that violates the rules of this community or causes any pain to anyone in any way. This is not my wish at all. So basically this post of mine is for all the women (ladies) who are in my life till now and whoever is in my life. Look, I am single and till date I have never dated anyone. I am almost 30 years old and there is nothing to be proud of here because I am a bit introverted and a bit of a person but slowly I am talking to others (when i feel comfortable) and I hope that I will definitely get some benefit from this. Let's see what happens next. But it is not that I do not have any female friend in my life, it was not like that. I had some female friends in my school and in my college also and but I did not feel confident enough to go and tell them what was in my heart because of that I could not do many things which other people used to do, sometimes I used to get angry at myself also, for this I feel like this. Leave all these things, I was here to talk about something else and I am saying something else 😅. Maybe now I am ready to change my self of something better.

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So this post is for all those women (ladies ) who are in my life, that is my mother, my sister, my sister-in-law and my little children who are my sisters children and my brother's children. I am not married yet but I hope that maybe I will get married by next year because my parents want a girl for me. Maybe I am not that smart that I can search for myself, if I could then maybe I would have been married by now. 🙂. I am very grateful for everything that I have in my life, in my family and I am proud of all the things that I have. All the things that we do not feel much about, but the people who have them do not have all the facilities and they do not have all the people that I have, so they feel the lack of this thing. Many people are family oriented people, they are happy with their family, I am also like that but I don't know why, the happiness that I had in childhood is not there, sometimes there is a lot of sadness too, and I am just in search of that happiness and I hope that I will definitely feel that kind of happiness. I had a deep conversation on this topic with @dreemsteem (last week) I was a great talk to be honest, it was kind of unplanned and I was like how she know all that did she knows how to read mind. I was pretty amazed by that. Thanks for that mam.

All the women in my life that I have mentioned, my mother has done a lot for me since childhood and every parent does a lot for their children To be honest I have been that kind of person who has been obedient to everywhere, whether you say it in the office or in school or in college or at home, if my family members tell them not to do this, I will not do it. But see, everyone has some dark secrets or the other 😜. And I also have it, you can tell me right now that I cannot share it with everyone and I don't want to do it either. But watch it, I mostly do what my family members tell me. You can compare me to that character of the movie Yes Man, who used to say yes for everything. If you have seen the movie here, then you might be remembering it. But if you don't want to watch this movie, then definitely watch it, you will enjoy it a lot. You are mostly just following whatever tasks I am told to do and trying not to do anything that causes pain or suffering to anyone. I prioritize some things over others and maybe that's why I get sad sometimes. It's like lost in my own thoughts.

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In India, we all live in joint families and it is a very amazing experience. Those who do not like living in a family they like nuclear families, but since childhood, I like joint families more where there are many people and we all live together, eat together, do things together and it is a very amazing experience. When my grandmother was alive, she also considered me very good because I was a obedient boy and I think I also have a kind of super power and that is that people trust me and believe in me and we share a lot of things with each other. I don't know how many people have shared what all things with me, it is good for them that I never share anything 😶. I feel that building trust is not that easy. But once trust is broken, it's even more difficult to rebuild it. I generally work very little at home, but I'm not forgetting much with my friends, and I'm the same at the office. In a way, you could say I'm much more calm. I am quite kind of person most of the time and I love to use emoji and Gifs a lot (I enjoyed it a lot)

All the people in my house are very supportive and do household chores in such a way that I am not even aware of it and I am very grateful for all these things. See, whether it is my breakfast or dinner, I just stay in my room, during my free time and online I keep doing something like this on the internet, I do not like to sit idle at all, but if I do some work then I get busy in that, otherwise I keep doing something or the other online. It's not that I don't do any household chores. Whenever I have time, I do things like clean and organize things. You could say I'm kind of cluttered; I can't stand the sight of things being busy. I love to the work at home if things are not in properly organized i get irritated. (My weak point you can say)

I like doing household work a lot now because cleaning is like sometimes I help in washing utensils and sometimes I also sweep and mop the floor when I get time .Sometimes I get up late and then I am not able to do any work, I keep doing all the work in a hurry. The ladies (wowen) at my home get up exactly on time and keep everything ready for them like make breakfast and tiffin for my office, isn't it even more fun. Even though I am never able to express anything to them, there is a lot going on inside my mind (you can say it hard for me to express my felling it like i want to say but i can't) and I am very thankful to everyone for all these things.

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And if I talk about the online world, mostly it is my hive and Discord. I have a lot of friends, male friends of hive , female friends of hive. I keep chatting with a lot of people and I enjoy chatting with them a lot and I don't even realize how my time passes. I am a bit shy person but when I meet people with a similar mindset, then I start chatting and it does not depend on what kind of person you are. If you are forcefully chatting something then it does not last for so many days. If you are really interested in any topic and your chatting are interesting then your friendships lasts for a long time and in this way I have made many friends, some are new and some are very old, I keep chat with them from time to time. Like its like you have mutual interest then I can talk a lot if not then it is hard form me to talk. I like to chat with a few peoples they are male and female both thanks to hive I got so many friends here grateful for that. Maybe some day we will meet in real life too (not sure if that will happen xd)

I used to chat with everyone (kind of unnecessary chats) earlier but not anymore because if you follow people just for your own benefit then you can't remain friends for long and after a while people understand what the other person is like. So everyone feels this to some extent, so I keep some distance from such people and slowly our chats gets closed.

In the end I would like to say that whatever women have come in my life in whatever form, be it my friends or any member of my family, I am grateful for everything and we definitely get to learn something new from each one of them, we just have to keep our mind open to learn. There is a lot to learn, you just have to keep yourself prepared for any situation.

Thank you, maybe this is enough for today, I will meet you sometime soon, and thank you. I hope I have not violated any kind of community rules, if you are like me then please guide me, thank you.

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