How do you guys find the motivation to blog these days? Or, do you even find time to write? I don't know, Hive just feels empty for some reason. It feels like a barren place or something. Or maybe it is just me. That people don't find my posts wildly entertaining or "intellectual" enough. I know I write as if I am an expert on things and I could barely even string grammatically correct sentences together. Maybe I am not friendly enough and don't really go out of my way to connect. Okay, I tried leaving comments on other blogs but sometimes I don't even get a reply. Like, what's up with people these days? You guys are infusing me with self-doubt.
I already knew this right from the start, right when I was still posting on Steemit. I am not one of the popular ones and I am not friends with the whales. I even had some trolls back then (great for engagement though). So, I'm bound to have fewer upvotes and whale fans. Feeling least connected with Hive is probably just a combination of multiple factors all coming together at the same time.
Sure, I still blog regularly to cope with the overabundance with time. And part of that is still not having a job at the moment. Because probably, this is not the best time to job hunt right? I am just one of the many out there. So, I will be lying to myself if I say that I am not blogging for money these days. I can continue this hobby on WordPress and not be disappointed for not getting a few $$$ on a post. You mean I should write quality content? Naaaah. Steemit lives on, I mean, we are still in the same situation here. The same circle upvoting each other, shitposts, and all. Oh, and the staying for the community blurb, look around, I don't really feel the community anymore. I see well-written posts with upvotes but zero engagement. You get the rewards but people don't really care. So, what's more important now, rewards or connection?
I thought that during this pandemic people would find more time to write and be active on Hive. Even if you don't go out a lot and engage in real life, I am pretty sure you still have a lot of things in mind worth writing about. I shouldn't be the only one overthinking and pondering when things are going to be "back to normal." If there is even such a thing.
To be fair, it is not only on Hive that I feel utterly disconnected. I tried reactivating my Facebook just to catch up with what's going on in my friends' lives, but it turned out, I don't feel connected with them anymore. I even tried to reach out and check on someone I was really good friends with before, but I just felt disappointed. I just felt like they wanted to end the conversation straight away maybe because it was awkward. I don't really know what's up with people these days. I am trying to do something with my isolation yet it seems that people don't want anything to do with me.
I mean I get it, nothing exciting going on in my life right now that are social-media worthy. And I'm not gonna force anyone into my life. I understand that things change and people too. And maybe I do too. I should just be happy and grateful to have a few friends to talk to regularly in these uncertain times. And I am thankful to have a few upvoters and "real followers" (because some are dead) who still engage and support my blog here on Hive. So, thanks for the money and the community! You guys.
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