I thought I knew myself because I was me, but recent events have led me to think otherwise and beckons on the need to understand the importance of rediscovering myself. I’m going to be taking a lot more me time to figure myself out and what I want. I’ve discovered a few things I need to work on myself to improve, some old habits and activities I need to get back to, and some new things that excite me for the days ahead.
I’ve ignored my body and the gym the past few days and I think it’s time to hit it again. Hopefully this time I don’t quit lol. Last time, I went one week consistently, missed a single day, and it was back to square one from there: I lose motivation to continue when I miss a single day. I’ll go back as soon as my academic pile reduces. I want to say my timetable was why I quit last time but was it really? I mean it was, but I wasn’t really attending my class either so I guess it wasn’t.
I would’ve gone back weeks ago if it wasn’t for the feeling that there’s not point going back since I would just quit again like last time.
I also need to get a haircut and do some self maintenance. My haircut is a month old and my face looks ratchet and worn out (kinda lol). There’s a school congress coming up and I’m kinda contemplating whether to get a cut now or wait and get one in 4 days time(we leave for the conference on Tuesday so I could get a haircut like Monday or something). I’ll tell you about the congress in a different post in the next dew days. My complexion has also gotten a little more darker. I’ll be getting back to my night routine and hopefully that should put me back in a nice shape in no time.
Aah yes! I’m finally paying attention to the one thing I dreaded. The academic work piled on my plate. My guilt outweighed my desire for comfort last night when I came home to sleep. I went to class in the middle of the night around 11pm to dust off a few things and catch up on at least one course so far. I didn’t meet the target I had for the night, but made good progress. Better and more productive than what I had planned for the night.
I’m drawing a plan to bury myself in my books with the free time I have. I’ll be at the library most of the time during the day when my laziness doesn’t beat my will. My activity on Hive like I keep saying, really will reduce these days. I won’t be able to engage or post as much as I used to, but I’ll still be here when I can. You’re probably noticing my reduced activity over the past 24 hours already.
I got a new study buddy too. An old friend from my first year University actually. Maybe this will help me get serious.
I haven’t really spent much time with my friends the past few days because I’ve mostly been away or maybe we’re all just busy and don’t hangout as often as we used to. Lol it feels like we’ve been together the entire time when we do hangout though. Like nobody ever left the conversation.
We hanged out and had lunch together at The View(I don’t know if I should keep explaining what The View is). We had fried rice, but before that, we played ludo. We started just 3 of us whiles 
@zzzinnn and @gunu1@zzzinnn amd @gunu1) planned something like a business yesterday and are currently just promoting and searching for clients. It’s a kind of an offline p2p transaction business where we buy your BTC, ETH and USDT at good rates in Ghana Cedi (GHC) to relieve you of the trouble of having to go through Binance p2p yourself due to reasons such as a lack of time, lack of knowledge on how to do p2p transactions, and a risk-free crypto(BTC, ETH&USDT) to fiat(GHC) currency conversion.
For now, we’re starting with only these coins because those are what a lot of people around here trade in. We hope that along the line as we expand, we can convince our clients to add HIVE to their portfolios. Maybe we’ll talk more on this in a different post. We came up with this idea yesterday in a conversation we were having due to boredom from a power outage we had in the early evening. It’s always new ideas, fun times, and how to get the bag with my friends. We got our first clients yesterday and I’m pleased to say we’re off to a great start.😊
I’ve taken the time to think about a few things generally and how I may have done certain things wrongly and some ways I can be better. These include my relations with people, some decisions I’ve made, opportunities I missed, things I could’ve done better and others. I’ll talk more in detail on some of these later down the line.
Considering that my mental health problems have been a result of the failure to do or a achieve a combination of the above, I don’t really need to do much here because I believe these new changes I’m making will go a long way to give my mental health a boost.
I’m an omnivert. I am either extremely shy around you or extremely confident and playful around you. Both have some bad downsides as I’ve learnt recently. If you know me at all, you’ll be worried when I’m not making jokes. However, for the people that I am extremely confident around, my jokes are extreme too and I tend to play around too much. My jovial nature is getting out of hand and causing me problems I didn’t anticipate these last few days. I tend to become too comfortable around the people I’m comfortable around that I play too much, and do and say stuff that might hurt them without realizing how extreme I went(at least not until after the damage is done). I’m being vague, I know, I hope you understand though.
This is is really one of the major reasons I had to reevaluate my actions recently and I’m making active effort to be better.
At this point, I don’t know whether this is about personal development or just me ranting and talking. I feel like it is more of a personal development thing though since I’m talking about things I’m going to be doing to be better.
These are my plans the next few days yo be a better person, a better student, basically the best version of myself. I’m heavy on the mamba mentality right now. I’m already working on some of them as I write this, but for others like the gym, I’ll start soon. May God be with me lo
