#ulog 2: Not worth it

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so I met someone online and we've been talking for about a year now haven't met yet and I know he's real because we Snapchat each other .
For months he made me feel like I was worth everything,
but then I pushed him away I told him from the start I would push him away and he told me he wouldn't walk away we used to talk everyday now he never messages me he never bothers to ask if I'm ok or anything I'm the one that makes the effort.
he knows mostly everything about my life I've been through a lot and now he couldn't even give a fuck anymore I feel so worthless I fell for him pretty deep and I never fall for anyone he used to make me happy now he makes me cry I know people will say just move on but it's just so hard I know we have never met but we was part of each other's lifes in a way talking 24/7 now nothing If I didn't bother then we wouldn't talk at all . the thing is I have really bad mental health issues and I know I have to put myself first but it hurts to let go 😣😭