Over the past 8 years, I have been consistently making progress in terms of my life in the physical word. In order to achieve goal, I must first set goals every year. I must say, I am impressed on myself by breaking 9 out of 10 of those goals not because I achieve it, it was because I failed them 🤣
Which was the 10th item in my bucket list that I've finally achieved? Well, so far the 10th achieved goal is, "staying alive". Since I'm still here writing and replying, this is the proof of existence. One of my 2023 goal was to purchase a new car, so I can use it for private hire and drive purpose. Be my own boss so I don't have to work for unreasonable bosses anymore. Guess what, I've got my hire and drive license on the same year, before I purchase the car, I found a job and I have forgot about the car. Same goes to 2024, when the "new job" is causing me a lot of frustration, I wanted to get a car and resign from the job. Once again, I got a job offer and forgot about the car for the second time. So, in 2025, I bought 2 cars at the same time 🤣 I got both cars 1 month apart, and the car already have scratches on them already.
Sometimes, I think the universe do "listen" to prayers. However, the universe doesn't "promise" us when is the right time to get what we'd wished for.
Remember the famous quote from James McCord, by Steve Buscemi in the film The Island? This has been in my mind for many years even before the movie was made. To me, God is the almighty, is the ultimate, is the alpha and eternal, why would God come and listen to my wish and grant my wish? In my dictionary, asking God with a bucket list is pushing our human responsibilities to God. I know you have a trillion reasons to comment on me, please don't let me influence you. Believe what you believe, and I believe you already know how much God love you and love me.
I have been setting goals trying to control my weight at a certain level, but when I found some pictures of me 10 years ago, I realized my weight control program is very successful. I have successfully controlled my weight by gradually increasing over the years 🤣 I'm now almost 30% extra of myself 10 years ago. Can I say God is not listening to my prayer? Bottom line is, I am the one who control what I put into my mouth. God simply keep me alive so I can continue to prove God is always right, I am the one who screwed up.
I love subway sandwiches. I think it was back in 2013, the first subway opened in the community where I lived, I fell instantly in love with their breakfast sandwiches. I eat at least 52 subway sandwiches every year because every weekend, either Saturday or Sunday, one of those days I will be buying subway sandwiches for breakfast. I have never made a goal on that, now that I think back, why didn't I?
Certain things we had in our life, we don't know what do we wished for. Ok let's put it this way, I don't know what I wished for. Like 30 years ago, I wished I can have sex with Cindy Crawford. Do I looked like I know what I wished for? Now that I look at Cindy on the internet again, I could have easily change my wish list to, I wish I can have sex with Cindy Crawford's daughter instead 🤣
Ok enough of that horse crap. I have a goal, my goal is to at least win one power up month, and guess what, for the part 3 months, this is probably the 3rd time I accidentally skipped one day power up. Who am I to blame except for myself.
Edited: the final paragraph went missing after I made the post. Wondering why... So, here we go again.
I guess it's not so much about the perseverance. Realistically, I could have been running out of HBD to convert. I know all that are excuses. In my case, there will be days that I am so bothered by the crappy job that I am attending that distorted my daily routine, to an extend eventhough I have set an alarm to power up, after the alarm rang, I could still be called by my boss for an urgent meeting, and immediately after the meeting I will have to go out and negotiate a sales deal, which result in me forgetting. Well well, once again, it still excuses. I know I know, I can set two alarm clocks just to cross check my daily tasks. It's all about prioritize what matters most. I would say, sometimes I just don't know how to pray to God. I sincerely believe God knows what I need more than myself. Cindy Crawford for example, or her daughter 🤣 wait...
