So, this week's reading was about Abraham, how great the trust he have for God, he even willing to sacrifice his son. Just before he was about to make the killing, an angel appeared on time to stopped him from killing.
At my work place, I'm at the exact same situation. No I'm not saying I'm Abraham. I'm merely trying to find my position now. My own client betrayed me, they go direct complain to my boss without even consult me what can I help. And the worst part of it, my bosses are allowing it, they took the client's word and shove it to me, and the only instruction is make it happen regardless of the consequences.
I'm at the brink of losing it. The other day, yet another case the client throw an unreasonable request die|crly to my boss, and my boss shove it to me. They don't want the labor, they only want the baby. I tried to explain, then the bosses shut me up and called me disobeying. I got so worked up picked up my stuff and left the office, on my way out I almost run down a fire door, I think I broke the hinge.
I should have known better, at my age finding a new job is not easy. Now that I'm thinking bad, it was so silly to even put up a fight. I really need to work on my ZEN again, to keep it cool and not showing it on my face. At this point of time, I already established that the bosses have something they don't like about me, so there's no point for me trying to prove them anymore. My reasons is always an excuse to them. I can choose to, find a new job and fuck off quietly. Or, stay and be the yes man. Even if I think it's against the rule, I should still "try to comply but failed the transaction", so I stayed out of trouble, and still be able to tell the bosses, I'm sorry I tried.
I know, life is too short to keep grudges. If you're in my shoe, what would you do when your boss taking any unreasonable request fromt he client and throw it to you and ask you to make things happen. Even if it's against the law and principal. Will you do it?
