As I mentioned in previous posts, (in Spanish) I left home six months ago and started a trip around the world with my girlfriend.
I've been in places I've never dreamed I would put a foot on, not in my wildest dreams: Canada, Hong Kong, Vietnam, Malaysia, Singapore, UK, Argentina)
But taking such a decision is not as simple as I thought. Or rather taking responsibility of such a decision is not simple at all.
I went through a lot of anxiety and emotional break downs due to a lot of reasons. Most of them related to the feeling that it wasn't me who was making all the decisions but my gf, making me feel that I wasn't in control, and also feeling that I would never go back home, missing my friends and my comfort zone; asking from time to time if what I was doing was the right thing, and painting different scenarios where I did things differently.
Then something happened. A single thought came to change everything: I took a decision, a big ass decision, a decision as big as leaving town, family, friends, and everything I knew in order to accomplish a dream I had since I was a kid, which was to travel and know a lot of places cultures and people out there. I realized that I was so attached to my old life that I wasn't living the present moment. I was thinking there was a lot of things that I left incomplete in Mexico... But that wasn't true. I was not letting my past go. I was constantly fighting an unwinnable fight against something I could not control; time.
Letting go requires you to need to let go. It's easy to say and to understand, but to actually feel it, it requires a whole process.
If you're experiencing something like this. If you're carrying with resentment, regrets, or a long mourning, you have to ask yourself what is under your control on that particular situation and what is not.
This post kinda make no sense, but I promised I will share my thoughts here. If somebody reads this and can make something out of it and finds it useful, great.
Have a nice day. Make the most. Regret nothing, and remember that a bad decision is better than no decision at all.
