It's almost Christmas. The holiday season is mostly about family, fun and food. Everyone seems to be in a good mood. I want to have a wonderful Christmas even though I am grieving and wish I could share this holiday season with my entire family. This year end I will have to stay at home with my children and husband, as my little boy is still on bed rest after being recently operated and we cannot make long trips to where my parents live, that makes me very sad because most of the years we spend together, but we all understand that it is for a just cause.
However, this will not be an impediment to make these days happy together with them, my eldest son always asks me mom, you are not going to make hallacas right, because you are sad? It leaves me thinking and reflecting, how to say no, if I thank GOD that we are alive and healthy, that I have to prepare them, he still does not understand how we feel when we lose a loved one, the truth I raise my spirits and tell him that yes we will continue to ignite the flame of joy that is in us, we will not let ourselves be wrapped by sadness because when we love there is that engine that gives us the strength to get up and run. We will make that delicious dinner on Christmas Eve in the name of God, we will wait for the arrival of the baby Jesus, and we will give part of this delicious dinner to our relatives as well.
I think of those who left in such a hurry, I see the sky and the stars, I will only imagine that they went on a long journey and I will see them soon, this Christmas I will raise my glass of wine and together with my family I will say it was a pleasure to have shared a lifetime with you that this Christmas will not be the same, but it will make us better human beings with a great heart full of humility, peace, love.
Culminating we will cover ourselves with a big hug as a family to strengthen our ties and ask that the light of hope always shines in us and in the whole world.
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