You acted as though I said that on the night you left. You acted as though I said these words, but I didn't. You have always had at least one older sibling as you are growing up and they always manage to solve problems even when I instructed them to let you solve them yourself. For that reason, you are not quick to jump in and make a decision.
For some time, I have been testing you to see what kind of decisions you will make in this situation or that. I'm sure you remember me asking you if you had checked on me the other night when you came home. I also asked you questions about twice a week on "What would you do if..." type questions.
I was also watching what you would do and when you would make a decision to act when we had that emergency a couple of weeks ago. I remember doing most of the talking and you would ask me if I wanted to go to the hospital. You and I discussed things, and then we both decided that I'm going to the hospital.
My view from there...
You were enough! You got the job done.
If I had lost consciousness and being unable to go into your room and tell you what happened, I wonder if you would have checked in on me or would have just fallen asleep. It is a valid worry! My worrying about that is not an accusation against you. You have to know that.
I have you caught you checking in on me over the last few months. So I know you do it. Well, did it. You just don't have as not much experience in taking care of people or being responsible for other people as your older siblings have. But you are the one who offered to come here, move in and keep an eye on me. Thank you for that.
I will be talking more about experience and using it as I have demonstrated in the past. I rarely get to say much about experience because of the look of resentment in your eyes when you hear the word.
You are gaining a lot of your own experience and that is great! But you also should use the cheat codes that we've talked about. I will cover those for your benefit and for those reading probably in the next post.
Love Dad.
