Ever wondered what would happen if one of my family members passed away.
Now, I can't believe it. Tears won't stop falling and my hands can't stop shivering.
I can't believe the fact. I can't accept it. My father just left us.
We lost our dad, a short time ago. We are still hurting inside, like he would know. We have our personal memories, which we will never share because that cherished moment, came with love and care. He knows that we all love him still, and we really care. but we cannot tell him anymore, as he not sat there in his chair.
20th January 2017
12.20 pm
Now at the airport. Rush back to KKIA and my hometown, right after my arrival at 10 am. Waiting at the boarding area. Waiting like this was very hard. One of the most challenging moment during that time.
How can I stay calm? Just me alone here and it was raining outside. Lord, do I have my strength with me? With all the strangers, they were looking at me, was wondering why I was crying that time. Now, the fact that I hated airport. I wanted to be strong, but can I?
I really can't accept the reality what will happen next. Can the four of us live our routine the way that we used to..?
Oh Lord, I need guidance. Deep inside, I don't want to face it. How I wished that my father will take me through the aisle on my wedding day, and be the happiest person. I admit that it was very hard, and the pain was too much for me.
If only I can turn back the time, I want to say that I really love you, daddy. And hold your hand, say that you will always be my king.
But I believe God has better plan.
Lord, those who have died and have gone before us marked with the sign of faith, especially those for whom we now pray. May these, and all who sleep in Christ, find in Your presence light, happiness and peace. Through Christ our Lord,
Amen.
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May your soul rest in eternal peace. I love you, daddy.