My heart had been acting not good lately as I have observed. It is because I always wake up in the middle of my sleep with my heart racing with its beats as if I had ran or had done some strenous activity. It could be a cause of many things and it could also mean that it really is failing as I do always get not only hypotension but also hypertension.
I had given up taking antihypertensive medications because it always causes me to have hypotension and it is not also good because it causes my dialysis sessions to be cut short and in turn I do not get much blood cleaning as a result. So I also figured that if I just naturally control my hypertension it could work but it didn't as it seems and I still get hypertension and it causes now my heart to act strangely.
My heart's telltale signs of conking out quite makes me worry especially in my case where I have still plans in my life. It is just funny that y plans will seem to gonna outlive me and not the way around so I might end up not finishing my business before the end of my time. It will make me sad for now but of course there is no feelings or wisdom or anything in the grave where I will go so it will just be okay and fair enough as I did my best.
Right now I will just focus on the things that I can do and hope to reach my goal so I just needed some prayers from everyone so that I can help not only myself but my family and friends. It is hard for my condition to plan but I know that in planning I can get an inspiration to move on with life and not stagnate as we just need to carry on as we are a part of time and we just need to ride alongside it.