I have been going through a lot for the past few days because I am someone who doesn’t like stress at all. You’d think I’m clowning if you know me very well, because I actually stress myself a lot. Also, I don’t like it when I am overwhelmed by things, but I am also the same person that causes it most times😭. It’s as if my inner personality collides with the outer one (I don’t even know what I mean by that, but I know what I want wanted to mean😂😪)
I had to go to school last week because I needed to get a lot of things ready. I tried to put some things together, but not all. I needed to come back home to get things I would need for my convocation, so I had to travel back last Friday. I couldn’t go to the market on Saturday because I had to be at a wedding ceremony and my mom who insisted on following me was also fixed.
My mom told me she has this woman that sells ‘correct and confirm’ corporate wears and she wanted to take me there.
Hmm, why not? Let’s go mom🌝
I am sure you can already guess how this story ends. We got there and the woman(owner of the store) told me to check for what I would like. Ladies and gentlemen, her big store was filled with cloths for 30+,40+,50+ women😂😭😭 I obviously didn’t like any and didn’t even fake it, I told both of them straight up😂 Thank God my mom understood the whole situation, she wasn’t even mad at me.
I told my mom about a location I saw nice corporate outfits on my way home from school, and we headed there. There were a lot of boutiques in that area and we checked out few shops. The clothes were quite pricey and it wasn’t even like they were mind-blowing designs. They were actually really mid and I didn’t want to force myself to go with what I didn’t like. To cut the long story short, we went back home without pearl’s convocation gown. We decided to try out another market today and that was meant to be after my mom gets back from her place of work.
I woke up today to news that my supervisor wanted us to come around today and submit our final project. My friend also messaged me to ask if I had already paid for my convocation gown and all other things. It was that moment I realized that I had a lot to do with so little time. I had to work on my clearance as soon as possible and also tidy up my project work for final submission.
I was overwhelmed and was not in a really great mood. Then, my mom came back from work and she had some things to scold me about. Due to my mental state at that time, It just made it all more complicated.
Just when I thought I had already entered my ‘hard girl’ era because I have actually been handling my emotions pretty well for the past few months, but today, I had an emotional breakdown. I went to one corner and cried like a baby🥹. I really can’t remember the last time I cried (asides from when watching emotional k-dramas), I had been holding up really fine. Anyways, I feel better now and I really hope that doesn’t happen again.
We later went out to the market to check for more stuffs today and I was able to get a good gown and heels. There are still other things to do, but I am glad that is off the list.
Thanks for reading ❤️