First of all, this topic is a very vast one, and my reason for saying that is that, as a person, you are a lot of things and have the potential to even be more. I don't know what part of me I want to start with when I talk about myself, but I will try. Maybe I will be generic or something, since we are involving the perspectives of others as well.
Let's start with the opinions of others that I have heard over time. Many people believe I am a very gentle person and that I do not talk much. I think some people might also believe I am not so approachable because apparently my straight face gives that vibe. Some even assume I am going through something or bothered about something because I look somewhat troubled, according to them. At a point in my life in the university, I would get asked by a number of people why I was frowning 😂
It is usually funny to me because all this time, yeah? I would think my straight face is so cute 😂😭 Maybe my straight face gives a certain vibe, for real, but it doesn't in any way come close to who I really am.
So let's talk about me now. I have a serious social anxiety issue, and my entire body system doesn’t do so well when many people are present. So I like to keep to myself a lot in public, and it's more like a defense mechanism. I wouldn't want everyone to find out my secret, you know. If I get approached by anyone, I switch to being the bright person that I am and attend to that person with enthusiasm.
I am a very simple person and very fun as well. I would say I can be shy, but most times, I do what I have to do. Contrary to what many people think of me, I do not think I am that much of a gentle person. Especially if I am very familiar with you. You will see the most goofy part of me. At my core, I am not gentle or shy, but yes, I have anxiety issues, and it is more serious than I let people know or than they are able to assume.
Lately though, I think I am doing better with people. In fact, I think I have always been good with people, but when it comes to being in a public space or with a number of people, that's when the anxiety kicks in.
Some people have come to see me for who I really am, and they often get super surprised. I can't count the number of times I have heard, “Wow, so you can talk like this.” I love it though 😂😭
Anyways, we keep growing and we keep getting better. That is the beauty of life. Additionally, I don’t think I let people in so much to know me that well. I don't know if that is a good thing, but yeah, that is what it is for now.
