Hello! I appreciate your comment and thoughts, it made me think.
Our brain loves the familiar for sure. I surprised myself when I felt tears in my eyes passing through that town. I am trying to figure out what I am feeling and why. I started writing down in a journal, it helps a bit. Also I started therapy which I hope it will bring some clarity for my soul and mind.
I can appreciate the good things about that person yet there were some details which indicate that my love was not reciprocated and that hurts. Maybe the most important question I should answer to myself is why I stayed with someone who did not love me? Why did I hope they will? I will take it with baby steps and continue therapy as I also make these changes in my life. From what I noticed that person moved on and they seem happy. So I am the one who is still stuck and ruminating. So I will just have to solve it and make my soul understand . It is a process and I am open about it because I feel that Hive is my safe little coccoon. And I want people to see me as a human, beyond the artistic posts that I share. Thank you for your kind words🤗