Thank you so much for your words🤗 It has been almost a month since I have left. The scheme I saw being done to me actually strenghtened me and made me realize the mindset that it is imprinted into you when you live under the poverty mindset of an Eastern european country. I believe that if one individual feels secure and reliant on the system they would not act like this. Decades if not hundred of years of trauma make people from certain nations think that one way is the only way to get ahead. I will not cure them. The process of cleaning the mind will take many years.

I feel more peaceful since I have cut ties with certain people. Is my circle smaller? Yes. But I was never afraid to be alone. And I can clearly see how all of the process made me gain more self control. And it is powerful because once you stop getting triggered you are almost immune to external factors.

I dedicate the time for mostly my inner growth as a person. I actually value the fact I have more time for myself and I can sit and say:what do I want to do next for my soul? I know that if I continue to grow I will attract whoever I am becoming, the better and better. So even if it hurt like hell, all of my adversity and past people who caused me harm , were my biggest teachers. I am strong because I have learned and continue to learn instead of letting circumstances define a bitter version of me. I am free and I feel I am getting to a calmer place of mind. And I take this as a sign I have made a good decision to turn my life around. Wherever I might go, I will always take Me with me. So working on myself is the best thing I can do and never regret.