Oh Taraz I can't even imagine you losing your most precious asset: the clarity of your mind. I wish you to recover and be in good health. Our being is a cocktail of chemicals, it is somehow interesting to look at people this way as you can gain more compassion because some people are born with a brain which is more prone to depression, anger, mental illness etc. I often thought about this , as we take our mind , our life for granted until we see someone who has completely lost it. Then yes...death is easier

I also wish you happy holidays and a great new year , make the best from the cards life has given you.