I was pondering some abstract concepts last night and spent some time thinking on the concept of how we exist. It's seems clear to me that we only exist in the moment and getting out of my own head space and not focusing on the past or future just reinforces that awareness. This present and aware space is the perspective that I feel people are referring to when they discuss things like awakening and expanding consciousness. I often wonder why so many people write about or discuss these things in so many different ways and words and today I'll share my perspective on that.
Being in the present moment and just going with the flow of existence, we all seem to describe the same basic concept of interconnected energetic existence. Many people having the same experience even if we don't have tools to measure it or a firm understanding of how it works is surely relevant. If we look throughout history, we can see many cultures and societies practiced and cultivated this awareness and consciousness without all of the technologies, pharmaceuticals, or distractions we have today. Many cultures even used hallucinogens as part of their spiritual ceremonies or rights of passage into adulthood. It's certainly something to ponder on why we moved away from this or were led away from these types of rituals and rights of passage over time.
Regardless of what triggers this spiritual awakening or expanded awareness of our consciousness, it's seems clear beyond any doubt to me that there are many of us trying to describe and understand the same thing. It's from this perspective and the further it grows that many of us also seem to come to the same conclusion that people have this experience if they want to or when they are ready to have it. There is no waking someone else up in this sense. If you've ever seen the movie "The Matrix," then you may remember a scene where Morpheus offers Neo the red pill or the blue pill. It's easy to think that the pill is what caused Neo to pull out of the "matrix," but consider this, ultimately the pill had nothing to do with it as the choice that he made to wake up led to everything that happened after that.
I believe that it's this understanding and my admitted fatalist view of existence that allow me to experience things like synchronicity and I'll often tell people that everything happens for a reason. I feel that these concepts are only really visible from a "present" or "awakened" perspective though. It leads to a lot of push back and resistance from those that don't see things the same way and I can understand that. When we're lost in a moment and focused heavily on something we perceive as negative that has happened, we can't detach from that experience enough to see the bigger picture and understand that things happening lead to other things happening later and it's easy to get caught up in the victim mentality and feel that we're being punished or treated unfairly.
In this present state of awareness and with enough detachment to see that we are all part of some greater connected force or energy, whatever you want to call it, I feel that I've come to the conclusion that everything that has ever happened is in some way what I wanted even if it doesn't feel like it at the time. For instance, let's say I wanted to have this "awakening" experience in this lifetime, but in order for that to happen under the current conditions in my society and environment, I had to go through some serious shit that fundamentally broke down every concept of who I thought I was to simply make me who I am. I can't really have it both ways, I can't be the victim that things happened to and the one that wanted to be who I am if those events are part of what makes me who I am.
It's from this perspective that I can see that even though there were many hurdles on the path to where I currently am, they don't define me or control me, they are simply the path that lead me to this moment. Who I am in this moment is the only self that I can ever really be or I'm just lost in the past punishing myself or living in a world of illusions and expectations of the future and setting myself up for disappointment. As much as I've tried to convince myself in the past that I wanted to know what comes next or to have some grand plan for my life, the more aware of the present I am, the more I realize how boring that would actually be. If we're all just a limited perspective of a greater energetic consciousness or "god," it seems from my perspective that the game we're really playing is remembering what it feels like to not be the one in charge. You can't surprise yourself if you are aware of what you're planning can you? Perhaps we're all just seeking the wonder of what it's like to experience not knowing what comes next. Namaste.
