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Important to say it if you are a person who judge others this post is not for you. Thank you!!!

I was happy! Yes i was so so happy but in one day I lost everything for one year, I don’t know I wasn’t sure if to post this but i was thinking that what I did wrong to not post it.
I will not speak about the situation because is longer and complicated but I want to speak about the trauma and my feelings.

I was only 23 !! I was a simple girl who had a simple life with her favourite person and her family. I never thought that this will happen to me but yes life is unexpected. Yes i got caught and stayed 3 days closed waiting the #judgment .
Yes our law is not so fair because of so many reasons.!!!

I don’t know how to describe the feeling that you have when they say “ Imprisonment” . I started crying because i saw my mom and my family crying when they took me . Was so painful and heartbreaking.

I don’t have the right photos because I didn’t had a phone in jail but I choose some to describe the moments a little bit.
When I went there everything was so strange and cold , the place was miserable, the women there too . Looks like they wait to the door to see people entering inside. This was so sad !!
I remember the questions that they did : what did you do ? For what reason are you here ?

Omggggg the feeling that i was there was destroying me and i was thinking how i will handle their questions too ?!!
But sometimes when you don’t wait it a strong part of you goes outside and I remember perfectly when i said to one of them Did I asked you what you did to be here ?

Being closed away from your loved ones was so strange and sad but being in jail was the most terrible thing that can happen to a girl 23 years old.
I remember that i was crying and crying the first night but praying too , i was praying only for one thing! For my family.
I was asking the God that what i did to deserve this but I also praying to give courage and strength to my family.

The phones there were exactly like this one, by the way is me in this photo when i was 19 years old. I never thought that i will pass the feeling to speak in this phone in reality!!!
I remember when i call my mom because her number is written in my mind , she was waiting for my call . Omg i cried when I heard her voice , i was feeling so bad about the condition that my parents was because of me , because i wasn’t in the right place when that happened.

One of the most terrible things there was the cold, at the beginning I didn’t had my clothes there until my parents bring them but in the beginning was so hard for me , i remember that I slept with my coat my jeans and i was freezing again!!! Trust me was so hard for me to handle all this thing because was unexpected. I remember every time when it rained out rained in my eyes too . That’s why I don’t like the rain is so melancholic and makes you think and cry .

I can’t describe with words the feelings and my thoughts for myself and for my situation in those moments. I started to hate my life and myself , I started to think things that Wasn’t so good for my mental situation. But what can you think there ?! Only bad things. We can’t hate ourselves because life is like this .
I was so sad and giving motivation to myself in the same time, saying that everything will be all right and i will be happy again and yes things started to change but after 2 months and half inside.
I will describe it like one of the worst things that happened in my life, but you need to keep your mind calm no matter what because will make you feel better. At least!!

Here is me again. Praying was one of the biggest thing that helped me to go though this, I don’t know even if you don’t believe it at least you speak and try to convince yourself that things one day will change because this life is created like that one day you cry and one day you laugh , I know that for some people is so hard to understand but I’m not a criminal I just did something to change my life but I didn’t achieve in that way and i suffer the consequences . But yes now I’m out and living with my family but sure i have some courts .
If you want an advice if you want something in life is better working hard because in the way that we choose sometimes is not the best one .
I hope you like a part of me and my story, I know that even if i will travel all the world and even one day I will be the happiest person all those memories that i had there ⛓️⚖️ will always follow me because they have turned into a nightmare for the moment.