This is so beautiful. Try to remember that just like you, Lovey has been traumatized and may find it difficult to trust or accept love. This will improve with time. It will for you too, as you take a long break and give yourself some distance. A Somewhat sabbatical from romance. You need that space to be able to give you a clear indication of what you really want out of a relationship, who you are and most importantly, how to spot red flags! You Clearly have a good heart. Don't let cruel people ruin that for you.
!Love'
!Hug
!Lady
!Sloth