Are you scared of the dark?
She asked me, with a concerned look on her face. It was dark and I could barely see anything except for the whiteness of her eyeballs and her teeth. I couldn't say anything at first, I just stared at her silently. The tension was really brewing more intensely this time before I finally spoke.
"N-n-no...how can I be scared of the dark? I'm a grown man", I said with as much courage as I could muster and I saw the whiteness of her teeth broaden. She was so beautiful, even in the dark. She touched me hand while we walked and i could feel the smoothness of her skin and it's warmth. We made it to the corridor and finally found the door knob to her room
Truth is, I was really scared, I was scared out of my skin and I could feel my heart beating intensely. How's I going to tell her that I was scared of having sex, how's I going to make her believe that I had no experience whatever, that all the big talk in our sex chats were just things I learnt online. How would she feel when I'm not able to satisfy her and I let the milk flow before she even gets a chance to feel aroused.
Surely, I'll be everyone's laughing stock. I'll be their subject of discussion and I'll finally earn the tag "one minute man". No girl would ever want me again after that and I'll be celibate forever. So many thoughts ran through my head as she struggled to get the door open. I remembered how her lips had tasted, she was so perfect and the sight of her just made me helpless.
She finally got the door opened and locked it after we got in. I just stood by the door and watched her fumble with the switch. Immediately the light came on I was blinded by her beauty once again.
"Are you alright, you've been awfully quiet"
"Yeah, I'm alright, I'm just... speechless..you're beautiful", it was funny how I was still able to come up with such sweet things when so much fear ran through my veins. Those words had it's effect immediately because she walked up to me slowly and kissed me on the lips, then she took off.....
Ehem... if you're looking for porn go watch it off the internet. It's funny how you could even think about what she took off forgetting me that was on the hot seat. But if you're indeed wondering if it ever happened to me, well, it did. It's a true life story about my first near sex experience. I know it might sound strange to the ladies but truthfully, we guys get scared a lot when it's our first time too. So many thoughts cloud our minds, is my cucumber big enough? Can I satisfy her? Can I afford to go more than one round?
I really was genuinely scared, I was twenty and I had never had sex before. She was beautiful and certainly a girl any guy would kill to have.
But did I die?
No I didn't, she kissed me and we made out. When it was time to go in, I summed up the courage to tell her that I didn't do it without a condom and luckily for me she didn't have any at her house too. I know you're wondering what kind of weakling I was at that time but I'm glad I actually did wait. I didn't ever get the chance again to do anything with her but I did have my first time with another girl and it was still as embarrassing as ever but then she didn't make a big deal about it and was able to understand very well.
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