On the fence

I've been the inbetween too often, but I guess I put myself there. I don't like to make decisions, especially about important things.
I feel like I've put myself in a bubble, between who I am, who I was, who I want to be, and who I need to be.
The one thing I can say now is that I don't feel like I am where I belong. Sometimes I feel like I've wasted every opportunity I've been given, other times I feel like I've never had any at all and that it was just the illusion of one.
I feel alone and tired. I feel like I'm not !original, like every friendship or relationship I've ever had just feels forced. I just wish I knew what to do. But for now I think I have to just stay stuck where I am with no idea how I got here, and no idea how to get out.
I guess for now I'll just stay on the fence.!