There are these words that I have used a number of times across my posts that read, 'change always comes.' I'm one who believes so much in change and the effect it plays through the different phases of a person's life. Our lifestyles, trends, attitudes, and thought patterns aren't the same as they were a year or two ago. Even just a month ago.
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You know, as I grow older, I realize that so many things weren't the exact way I had thought about and seen them to be. A lot were not as complex and, as such, not worth the troubles I had had to squeeze myself into even in my mind's eye.
I've grown. A lot. So much about me has changed, and it really feels like a lot for me cause at this point, seeing how feel-good and not exactly bad these changes are, i could deal with some more. One of such ways that I have evolved is in my general relations to people and the world. You can think of me as stiff, maybe(I can't find some other word to describe). I'm usually a kind of on my own and disinterested person. Calm, composed, holds her own, like the 'I don't care' and 'i don't see anything else' kind of person. That has changed a little. Or a lot.
I mean, I'm still calm but somewhat open and welcoming. And I do like it for me. I'm a lot like the person who doesn't like what she doesn't like, and in that way, I could be rigid and uncompromising. These days, however, I'm more open to experiencing life differently. To bend a little so as to see what other outcomes could come off that and to try out other things. It's funny now that I'd think of me then and think of a girl, who, although young, was stiff. Real stiff. Someone who took life a little too seriously. Someone who took up and owned her space, not letting anything/anybody in or out.
These days, I go with the flow. I live a little, realizing that life itself is hard, and I shouldn't make it any harder on me. But hey, I never used to think of myself this way, back then, cause I like to mind my business. To ply my lane and respect that of others.
Going out more, relaxing sone, leaving room for others in my space to live the way they would and not as me and generally taking my glasses off and looking at life even with my eye defect(I don't mean it like that) has helped me understand things differently. I just like that I'm more in tune with the goings on around and in life. In tune with others and with experiencing life with all of its packages. It's not as bad, I can see.
It might be nothing to you reading it considering im not sure i quite explained it properly. But maybe you could get that i started to walk the walk with life with an eye for everything that is possible inspite of the differences.
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