Hi there, yes you are reading this duh.
Well I want this to be real quick, and I decided to be more like myself.
It’s crazy right? But the truth is to be with someone that I wanted to be with is much crazy, acting like it doom.
Want something crazier than that? Well I want to be with someone that I failed on many things that I almost broke everything that made me decided to change for the last time in my life for her.
And these are the details I mean my story in fall in love in how many times but still I choose the one that never left me in my life.
I am Jay a teenager that wanted to be an artist and an athlete at the same time. Popular they say but it makes me numb to hear it, slowly to keep my mouth shut and sit along with my friends at the room. Until that day came it started with a puppy love. They say in teenage life you will go a lot of things that meant really a lot from good to worst moments in teenage life. Will let me introduce you to my first girlfriend I will just call her my puppy love.
We were too young and didn’t know what we are doing but we developed something that we called it’s starting to be ok between us, but something went wrong when I met someone that catches my attention and I will call her name clan mate. I don’t want to call them with their names, I want them to be known as the way I just meet them.
Clan mate was very sweet and that’s what I remembered but it didn’t last because I remember puppy love all the time and my heart beats fast while my head starts to think
“I still want my puppy love”
Puppy love give me a chance to prove myself to her and I was doing it all to make her happy, even I was on training for 300 meter dash in the coming event. I was too busy and always tired all the time after my practice but I never let puppy love feel she was left behind so I was making her smile and happy every time I am at her side. While I was on practice, clan mate and her best friend startled in front of me just to talk, clan mate introduce me to her best friend and her best friend was very kind and humble while talking. But I feel something incomplete that it wasn’t there all the time, I wanted someone on my side but it was empty all the time, then someone just fill up that emptiness and that was the clan mate’s best friend, I will just call her the training mate.
She was there in my events, she was so supportive and meet my parents one of my games, until I had my accident, I sprain my ankle in the field and then that time I remember puppy love, my heart was beating so hard then I fade out and went home. When I woke up and realize I still have feelings my puppy love. When I come back in the campus I saw her taking back steps away from me. I knew that I did something bad but I lift myself just to make her see I was badly wrong on what I did and I want to make up with her.
I took me months to repair what I did to her, but I made myself clear on her that I was wrong and I selfish because of the things that I made and I was very pity of all those moment I wasted. I give her a lot time until one moment we were doing some school activities then she was hanging with her classmates and I was trying to catch up with her, taking each move to be in her side. And I receive a heart full of one answer, she said YES. I was so very happy until a few weeks later a community service was serve and she had some practices that I went together with her, but some of her friends were bad influence on her so all I was doing was protecting her in any harm. Until something went wrong, I didn’t expected she was caught drinking alcohol and her cousin trade her in by jealousy. So after that I didn’t get some news from her.
I waited days until weekend went by. Monday morning in the school, without in my knowledge I was being page by the principal’s office, then the rumors spread like virus in a computer. The rumors were, I am the bad influence letting some of the students drink in their young age. That time her friends wanted to drink and I said no but they didn’t listen to me, and she told me let them do they want so I didn’t mind them. But the thing was her friends wanted her to drink too so I took the glass and I drink it for her but her friend disagree, they planned to distract me to let her drink, until I catch her drinking. I was protecting her but I was too late.
So far, I was gone lost after that because her parents thought I was the bad influence, for that I was being transferred to another shift of classes. And I didn’t do anything I was only protecting her from what would happen but I just didn’t expect this will happen to me about that. I was hopeless and almost lost my grip in living a normal life.
I stayed at home that all of my friends expected I was long away the country and never been heard about me for months. Until one day I went to a computer shop just to check my Friendster (yeah I know its old but that was our Facebook before, so far lets go back) then click into her profile and message her how she was doing, I stayed long in the shop while playing with some games just to waited for her because maybe I will catch her before I will log out until I ran out of time, so I went home sad and still miserable about it. Looking for something to do but still I can’t use anything even a phone to text her, it was just like I was in a jail in my own home; I was punished on my misunderstanding doing. No one listen to me that time they saw me just like I was that rebel teenager. I admitted that I have a lot of mistakes but truly when she come and I learned how to see other things that it should be, to live, to wait patiently, to keep one word to made it come true.
After a few days passed by, I come back to the computer shop then log in while waiting I played and enjoyed playing I didn’t notice I just log In. few minutes passed I took a look and she message me back, while reading something green pop up, she was online then I was so excited and my heart started to beating faster with a deep breaths while reading the last sentence. Thinking what to type that she could understand the situation but while reading back her message I really thought we were done but we were not, our relationship was still intact, then I message her back that I was far away but I will come back soon. She had her phone but I don’t so after the communication I try to use some old phones just to contact her, all I want was to see and love her but I can’t until I was caught using a phone and contact her so again I was punished I lost my only communication to her.
I thought that was the last time I can contact her but all they can say is if you’re a gadget person you can do something that you never expected you can do, so I made my ways and do it. I use a broadband and I had a computer but I had no internet connection so ways were done, I send a short message to her and that was a last load I spend. Waiting patiently for her respond then her number appeared in the screen. From that moment I was secretly using that to communicate with her. All of that was so hard and tried but I loved her so much.
The morning I remember some offers my parents give me just to finish my studies, I went to their room and I told them I will took the offer so that I can study again but not on the same class where my friends, I realized that it’s time I need to finish my studies. I was really addicted in loving her that much; I suffered and had sacrifices for her just to have her. Along the way I had a chance to leave a letter for her under book, I still made a way just to keep my interest for her, to show something that I was not like what she thinks so I made her happier than that. I might not saw her for how many months but I keep everything from a ball of mine that no one can understand.
Actually I was more secretive in terms about her, I want to keep everything in myself even I was hurt and tried when she was weak. I keep her waiting then I thought our communication wasn’t enough anymore so I decided I will surprise her at school where that was the moment I can see her again for how many months passed. But before that I heard rumors that made so aggressive like I want to punch someone.
One morning I went to a supply center, I bought some material that I don’t even need and went to the school. When I arrived it was lunch time, I immediately gone to her room then she wasn’t there but I saw that person who had rumors on her. I just talk to him and made him so clear that how this will be the last rumor I will hear from you to her. Truly I was calm and well respectful while talking to him because I saw him shaking of fear on me. But so far while I was talking to him, she arrived with a shocking face then she walked towards me I saw her teary eyes and I just hug her so tight and that was that.
On that day I saw my weakness, that I can say I truly falling in love with her that I just done the things just for her, even I felt she almost fail to love me because of that other person. I know it was starting because I’ve been there already and I was the one who was lack of physical attention on her that time, I cried every night thinking how can I do to make things possible in my mind so I planned and have a lot of patience in every second I could do. In fact I was trying to protect her not to do that, because she could regret it.
So I made that possible I made her happy right of all the things I’ve done from good things to bad doings but I learned a lot from what was in the past. Eventually right know my puppy love is my partner in real life, and I want her to know we’ve been a lot of thing that maybe some lovers mostly going through too, but for me our story is unique and no one can believe or imagine what we been through for how many years.
