wow, that is quite an insight -
I am learning that the deepest grief will bring your lost one alive, not quite in form, but fully in your heart.
I keep watching Life After Death videos - all those NDEs (dead for a few minutes, then revived) who tell us with such conviction that life does go on - even our sentience, our identity, will go on - however hard it is for us to see through the veil between our worlds.
May it be so.
May my sisters, your son, await us on the other side....
Thank you again for sharing such profound and personal loss with us.