Ooookaaayyy... I'm admitting it "out loud" here for the first time... I miss photography.
Eeek!
Regrets? No. No regrets. I'm still glad that I sold all my gear. I am, however, thinking of starting to save up for a new system. Something minimal, small, lightweight. I'm looking pretty hard at the Fuji system. Not planning on getting even close to the closet full of gear that I used to maintain. Promise.
Anyways, I was just organizing my portfolios here on my big computer to include some of my metalsmithing stuff, and of course I looked over all my old paintings and photographs that I had stashed away there. I was admiring some of my old portrait and pet work... it almost feels like a completely different person took these photos.
2016
A person with crippling anxiety and an inability to ever be wrong or make mistakes...
2015
A person who didn't have the perspective that allowed them to see their own worth.
2017
2015
2017
But at this point, I am so grateful for this opportunity... the opportunity to take this thing that I loved so much, which I absolutely destroyed for myself, and nurture it back to health.
2018
2017
I don't think I will ever try to make a business out of my photography again (never say never)... but I feel ready to dig into it again.
2016
Ready to play, ready to try new techniques & genres...
2013
2017
Ready to make a bigger effort at taking amazing photos of my friends, family, and adventures.
2015
...instead of just trying to get really good at one type of shooting that I think will sell...
2015
...to the point where I refuse to pick up a camera unless I'm getting paid.
2018
That attitude left with all my Canon gear. I'm so excited to simply enjoy photography for what it is...
2016
...an incredible art form with so many facets to fall in love with. My first love!
2018
This is going to be fun!
Thank you for taking this walk down memory lane with me. I'm so so excited to have finally shed the negativity and anxiety that I had wrapped around my photography practice and now allow myself to simply enjoy. Stay tuned!
Peace & Love
Caitycat