I said, “You know what, this is the time when I am being myself, when I see my life and happiness only, that is why I love Friday night, this is the only moment when I can be an independent person”
I have 2 kids, 13 year-old girl and 6 year-old boy. Since they have a big age gap, their schedule and their ways of going are so different, unless I slash myself into 2 parts, I can’t really be with them 100 %.
Although, I don’t want to let somebody else do my job, I am with my daughter’s ballet class, and with my son’s art class. And driving and driving. My food is always for making my tummy get big only.
Friday night is different. I finished gym workout early, at about 7. And set the table for my family, and say bye to them to go out.
Sometimes I’m alone, or like tonight, I’m with friends.. and no need to be wine always. Sometimes, it can be just a cup of coffee in Starbucks.
Just reading alone, or talking anout mundane lives of us, that’s it.
For today, I was with my Japanese, Chinese and Filipino friends, we call this group as a ‘Asian summit’. We are all mommies, who are giving away our lives for the mean time, for the times our kids growing up to the age when they would not need our helps.
We are dancer, accountant, marketer and Korean language teacher(me), who are pausing our carreers for the time being, but we love our lives and kept on talking and talking.
And we still talk even we left with each other, on viber, because we were thirsty on this time of showing ourselves.
We are mommies, and at the same time, we are womean and people who live our lives and who want to give our efforts to develop our societies, but for now, we look like doing nothing.
My daughter, one day, asked me like... “Mommy~ why you didn’t become any? You are already an old adult?” I wasn’t able to answer, because I was shocked, and failed to find a proper reason that made her understanding, I just nodded and replied, “That’s what I don’t understand dear, but someday, we’ll get to know, or you will be the one who understand first, could you please let me know?” ?????
She is innocent, but I am not, I was so gloomy that night actually and almost sad.
Tonight, we didn’t talk about sex or others like the ones who like to talk at our ages’ women, the topics we mentionee aboout were, kindergaten, schools and Chinese class... and etc...
We love these hours, we all know our thoughts and agonies as mommies. Japan, China and Korea always fight over many political issues, but we don’t care, we are all friends here who console with each other.
We will meet at the pool, play ground of this condo(yeah we are all neighbors) tomorrow morning, and will live our lives as mommies again, just like we didn’t have last night’s getting together, but we all know that we would go out again finding our lives, but as always, mommies’ lives even without kids, encouraging with each others, pretending we are leaving them for now, haha, but we all know it is not true, we never left them, just physically let us free from them, and let us feel free and cheers!
Happy Friday night all the mommies!