Hello my love 😊 I'm so glad to talk about this with you! Thank you for taking an interest 🙏🙌

I remember you saying that orienting made you feel worse. I definitely want to know when this changes for you;

I hope so! It doesn't feel as scary as before but I try not to push it until I get more regulation.

And I'm curious, does all orienting make you feel worse? Do they all feel "bad"/ make you feel less safe? Or is there a difference between them?

That is a great question! It does not! When I pay attention to my body, I feel safe and have tried some forms of meditation before. I notice that if I do that orienting randomly it's hard for me to stay focused on the sensation. I mean, I get lost easily and my mind tends to wander around. If I do meditation for example, or if I have the right environment with low stimulation around me then it becomes easier for me to stay grounded.

As for the environment around I think it never crossed my mind to look for pleasant things 🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔.... Hmmm... Oh, and I never tried to do the orienting via the auditory system! That sounds interesting 😊 Thank you for the suggestion!

But your confusion interests me. I wonder if there's a part of you that's trying to "do it right"?

I'm quite sure the "trying to do it right" is part of my difficulties 😅. I think I'm getting better at it as well and I don't get confused so often nowadays. Just the other day I was able to feel a really strong gut sensation that turned out to be a very clever warning of my body of a situation that in the end triggered some part of my trauma. I was kinda of happy to be able to feel that even though it took me a while to restore my calm. It's like, I can feel when my physiology is telling me that I'm not safe and then realise that it has nothing to do with the present situation.

Thank you so much for this interesting conversation, my good friend! ❤️🙌 Here's to more system health and regulation 🍻🍻

!HUG and !LUV