Form the moment I was born, it was quite evident I was meant to be different. My mum often tells me about the circumstance surrounding my birth; She was using some contraceptive and after having her 5th vhild, herself and my dad were ready to close up shop. Well, I still showed up. She says that's enough proof that I'm meant to turn the world on it's head.
Here's the thing, I've got issues, some deep rooted issues; one of which is that I'm super lazy. I'm one of those laid back people who only do things and get to the "just good enough" level. I don't want to be like this but I think there's a fault in my wiring that prevents me from being a super hardworker like legends.
"I've never been first but never been last". There's moments in my life that I really could have been the best at something; like school for example. All it takes is studying, just read a bunch of books and I know I'll do well but why did they have to make books so boring? I'll never know.
There's moments in my life I see the pinnacle, I know it requires an extra push but alas, I don't have within me and I let it go, sticking to the status-quo and floundering just beneath the top and somewhere above the nadir. Cursed to wander the streets of mediocrity. I'll sleep now, maybe tomorrow has the answer.
