I've walked many paths, fortunately not always in these shoes because, as beautiful and sexy as they are, they're not well-suited to walking very far at all; they look amazing on though, which is why I added them to my shoe closet some time ago. The paths I refer to though, are the many and varied ones I have travelled throughout my life, the journey's I've taken physically, emotionally and spiritually.
I've walked so many and have worked towards choosing them carefully and shaping them to the ideal I have in mind for my life, but they aren't always of my creation or come from choices I make; they come in unexpected ways, by chance and necessity, even by force, the will of other people's design or agenda. The constant, is that they come regardless of whether we want them to or not.
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I have recently read a book by a woman I greatly admire, Olivia Newton-John, which delves into her life, rise to fame and the tragic, but courageous battle she had with cancer. It was a good read and her life seemed to be a good one generally however, like all of us, she faced adversity and had to find great strength and conviction. She also achieved success, happiness and, I believe, contentment in her life and I think that's a nice balance.
I finished the book last week and something she said stayed with me.
"I don't know what my path is yet. I'm just walking on it."
Thinking about that made me draw a parallel and while I'm not a famous singer or actor I can relate, I'm a human being after all. None of us know what our paths really are, or often where they may lead, until we get there. We know the present moment though and can lay plans to walk those paths in our own way, can aim ourselves in the directions we choose and towards the destinations we would like.
I got a sense that Olivia Newton-John was happy with her life, even though she had to go through some terrible moments, and that she lived her time well, looked for value in what she did and sought to live the best life she could muster at any given point. When I put the book down I asked myself if I could say the same and I think I can, to the most degree. The paths I've walked haven't always been smooth and straight and the destinations enjoyable or happy, however I feel that those steps I've taken have all been necessary; each moment I have lived has been essential because without them I'd not be the Becca I am right now, or have the life I have right now.
I like the way I walk through life, I mean the way I think and act in respect of my own life and how I take the steps, even the difficult ones, that carry me forward through it. I could make it better, I know that and work towards it every day, however loving me now, my man, and the life we have together is important too. Being present in the moment contributes to the next and the one after that.
Becca 💗
