"Everything is okay, you look like you've seen a ghost." She picks me up and I shake my head. I do not have to tell anyone about this "flare-up" on him.
chapter 4:
- The point of view of Noy-
- 3 weeks later - "Nona" I hear Stav calling to me from the other side of the corridor, out of the classroom where she studied until a few minutes ago. I stop in my tracks and wait for her to reach me, after a few seconds. "Come to me in the evening," she says, holding a few notebooks and a folder. "Can not take my mother!" I shrug. "I'm going out with Saar to Morrison." "Allah" she smiles with enthusiasm, "How do you really go?". "Perfect, really perfect," I say, blushing. We've been together for two and a half weeks now, he's just amazing, and the truth is that he's been a great distraction for Dor, with whom I've barely spoken since I became a couple. I'm crazy about him, I'm just crazy about him, I do not support him, I can go crazy with him and his apathy ... "How am I happy for you, Nuna?" She smiles at me and I smile back. "My beautiful thanks, I have to go," I say, and she nods, I move closer to her and give her a kiss on the cheek, and then walk away from her. I'm dying to get home, I'm finished from this day, and in any case there's time for Sa'ar to pick me up. I leave the school gate, looking for Roni's car, which promised to bring me home. On the way I pass Dor's car, and I realize he's inside ... with ... with a girl ?! Yes, I see well ... they kiss, he strokes her, touches her ... and I feel my heart breaking ... I feel that if I continue standing there and staring at them I will no longer be able to control my tears which are already standing in my throat And rushing out. I slip away quickly past several more parked cars until I find Ronnie in her car, waiting for me in the air conditioner. I get into the car quickly and I think I'm still in shock. "Everything is okay, you look like you've seen a ghost." She picks me up and I shake my head. I do not have to tell anyone about this "flare-up" on him. "Just such tiredness" I roll my eyes and she starts the car and drives out of the driveway. She stops at my house and I walk into him and go straight up to my room, lying on the bed exhausted. I look at my phone to check if new messages have entered me, but no. Not storming, nor from ... Dor. Ugh. I let him go when he suddenly hears a sound. Post. Stirring. - "Hey my pretty :) Ready for tonight?" "Obviously!" - "Beauty Mami, I'll pick you up at 11" "Great" This will be the first time we go out together to the pub, Morrison. Dor introduced me to this pub .. I'm so sued that the friendship with Dor was pushed aside because of this connection, but what can I do when he is so indifferent and not supportive ... The evening is coming and I'm getting ready for our departure .. I'm wearing a black overalls of fabric Rough and silver heels, scattering my wavy hair that falls on my shoulders, and putting on mascara, black pencil and ruby. I give myself some perfume and I'm ready, waiting for the storm to tell me when he's downstairs. The message does not come late after a few minutes of waiting and I go downstairs and leave my house. His silver car stands right in front of the front door and he is sitting inside with a white buttoned shirt and a black elegant trouser leg. I open the door and get into the car. "You look perfect" he compliments me and I of course blushes. "Thank you," I say quietly. He starts off toward Morrison and when we arrive he opens the door for me and helps me out of the car. We enter and sit on two chairs adjacent to the bar, while in the meantime the music overshadows us and we are mostly busy listening to her, because this is almost impossible. After a while a group of boys enters the bar, and I catch Dor among them. Fuck, I did not expect that. That's all I need, that will catch me with a storm ... I'm getting up to dance with a storm when Dor approaches the bar to ask for a drink, and luckily he does not catch me. Sa'ar is going to get us a drink and I'm waiting for him in the yard, coming back after 2 minutes with 2 cups of water in his hands. I take one of his glasses and drink through the straw. After a few shlukim I feel dizzy, alcohol affects me relatively quickly, and Sa'ar takes me outside to breathe some air. He takes me to a quiet corner where there are no people. He starts to kiss me and I try to stop him because he's drunk and I do not want to do things we regret, especially since I'm a virgin, and I do not really imagine my first time like that. "Saar, enough ..." I mumble as he deals with kisses in my neck. He does not listen to me and goes on. "I'm quite upset," I say, already feeling the tears in my eyes when I can not control them anymore. He continues to kiss me hard and tries to unzip my overcoat. I wriggle under him and try to stop him but he's stronger than me and I've failed in my experience. "I do not want to ... I do not want to," I mumble and cry as he puts his hands on my chest ... I need a miracle now, I'm completely lost, He closes me tight and I have no way to stop him, There are no people to help me ... God, I beg you ... make a miracle and he will stop, please ...