Callings.

I don't even know where to start because right now, my mind is jumbled up. You know the feeling where you have a lot to say but no words to express them? I believe I am at that moment. There's so much in my mind... so many thoughts that can't be put on paper, and yet, I feel the need to let my scattered thoughts go on a spree.

I have been busy lately and decided to take a full day's breather today. I have been watching a TV series titled, "Manifest" and there's just so much in there that got me thinking as I am almost at the end of it.

Callings... Choices.. we all have one to make for ourselves. Every moment matters in shaping our lives, taking us to the next phase in life. Sometimes, what feels like the easiest decision can end up complicating a lot of things for us. Changing the course of our lives to either a better version or the next worse one to follow.

Mess... the world I know today is messy, but it isn't the world but we, humans. We make mistakes because that's just who we are. We can't help it. Sometimes, we believe we are making the right call only to find out we messed up big time and our actions after that?

I think that's what brought me here today. Our actions toward our mistakes determine what next will occur, and this series, Manifest plot revolves all around that.

What would have been your action if you accidentally killed someone or hurt somebody?

Would you live your life being regretful, live as if the world isn't worth living anymore, or find yourself a reason why you had to do what you did? A lie possibly. Telling yourself you did right and even find some meaningful quotes you can twist around it to make it look real until it becomes your truth.

I have met with people like that. People who are manipulative in the sense that if you aren't careful, you end up bending into their world and finding the truth that you'd never see as a truth if you were in your right senses.

Surely, I am no saint. No one in the world is. We all have our secrets, fears, and challenges. We've all lost someone, flared up, believed and respected people we shouldn't have, fought our ways out of trouble, and found our ways into some other. And in the end, whatever decision we make next is ours to make. Our call to make.

Oftentimes, we know the truth. At the very least, I know mine. I sure as hell know when I am doing wrong or not. Although I know I have done some things which I feel are right at the moment. However, I sit back later, and I know deep inside that my response to whatever I did wasn't the best. I know, and I take that blame because it is mine to take. Since I made the call, I should take absolute responsibility for what comes next, and that means not pushing myself to the edge of guilt but seeing it as an experience to be better because whatever happens can't be changed but the next action can be better.

To be better in whatever calls I have to make or take in the next minute because I don't want to sit myself down again with a sad expression knowing I messed up but with a happy one knowing this time around, I made the right call. And like I said, as humans, we make mistakes and that means I'll still make some that makes me sad(though I do hope I don't, lol) but what I won't do is look for quotes either biblical or motivational to support a bad habit because that's not who I have trained myself to become.

What about you? What would you do with the callings you make or take when they end, sadly?

In addition to this, I'll be adding a few songs to this for #threetunestuesday by @ablaze (It sure feels like years since I made a post on three tunes, hehe).