You know that moment when the soul feels like it's longing for more. You can feel that something is missing but yoU can't seem to pinpoint what it is. The drive the determination you once had, all wiped away mysteriously in one swoop and all of a suddeN from an ambitious go-getter you're just the couch potato looking for that thing that'll ignite the fire, the excitement, the passion you once had. You look at yourself and ask
"Why do I feel so deMotivated to do anything?"
This is an exaggeration btw 馃槀
You even try to talk about it but no one can understand because there's no way to express the feeling in words tO them. Then you start trying out things that normally make you excited and happy, but even that doesn't work. You're sort of stuck so you just keep going Through the motions.
I think I went through something of that nature the last few days. Wondering where all my zeal to do anything went. But then today it all changed just as as suddenly as it started. Nothing in particular happened. I slept earlier than usual as I'd been doing the last few days and I told myself that I was going to wake up at midnight and do some stuff I'd been stalling on. Deep down I knew I was lying to myself cause even when I manage to wake up I either just go right back to bed or do some other time draining activity like downloading games I'll eventually delete, or watching random videos till my eyes hurt.
This time though it was different. I really wanted to go back to bed cause I felt unmotiVated, had to literally slap myself awake and open my PC to start working on at least one thing. Then there was the temptation to just binge tiktok till I was tired, but I overcame it and got to work, and just like magic the rush came back. I'm not sure if it's an ADHD thing, but I hit hyperfocus and all of a sudden all the things I needed to do I started ticking them off my list (writing this is one of them).
Boom, all of that dopamine I get from hard work that has been seeming elusive for the last few days started rushing in so suddenly and i'm left wondering
"Where did you go all this while?"
This is not an exaggeration btw 馃槀
I thought the excitement was what I craved, but It turns out it wasn't, i just needed to nudge myself back into the grind when I didn't feel like it.
Now as I rush to complete all the Tasks I have let pile up so much, I ask myself how to tap into this power voluntarily. Honestly if one can learn to harness this power voluntarily, life will definitely get a lot better in a short amount of time. Will be doing a lot more sElf analysis, maybe I can crack this shit. Do you have any tricks that make you more productive?
If you made it this far I have a gift for you, all you have to do is comment on the secret word. This one should be super easy.
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