Every parents have fears for their children while they're growing up. There's a part of us that we often wish that they shouldn't follow that might lead to their youthful mistakes. That urge to pave them a different path, as possible, away from the ones we mistakenly took before. Another thing which ignites those fears are the current generation, it is quite different from the one we had before. Today's children are technologically inclined, socially adept, competitive and innovative.
New fears are emerging in my thoughts as I think about how my daughter would cope up to those things. It's a new environment and new people that she'll be dealing with everyday. I was on that stage before, we all were. So, I know very well that the transition will not be easy. Imagine having a carefree life and the moment you became 5 years old, at that young age, you'll start having responsibilities and will be tied down to your studies during the entire weekdays. It's a lot to bear since they don't fully understand why they need to learn those things yet, when they can just play all day instead.
Thankfully, in every chapter which my daughter ventures in, she eases my fears and worries all the time. She unexpectedly knows how make a name on her own and conquer every challenges she will face. I'm always proud of what she can achieve at her age and she doesn't need to push herself too much. I only want her to enjoy, make friends and learn new things just any other kids. Yet, she's exceptional. Oftentimes, she's quiet at home and barely even responding if I'm teaching her. Surprisingly, she has a good memory and a fast learner who craves for knowledge. She unpredictable but always bringing good results.
This time, as her kindergarten journey end has ended, she harbored plenty of awards. She was branded as a rising star and little achiever among her classmates. One of the few, who was mentioned to go up the stage and receive medals and certificates.
People criticized me for being a single mother when she was still an infant up until now. And, that's why my biggest fear for her was to get bullied at school and in the community regarding a mistake that's not hers to bear. The same reason why I tried my hardest not just to get branded as just a single mother, improved myself by continuing my studies and got a job. I don't want people to look down at her the same way as how they looked down at me before.
At this moment, as I marched with her going up, I have seen those same people who mocked me before with smile on their faces now. You can't always please people and I'm not living my life and raising my daughter just to satisfy their narrow judgement. It's up to me how I should live my life and I'll make sure that my daughter will not be inferior to their kids. She will be treated kindly in that judgemental and hypocrite community.
Proudly, even from the start, I'm happy to raise a daughter out from the standards of this place, letting her be what she wants and happy with what she'll become.
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I remembered after this day when they're done singing their class song, she proceed to the her previous classroom at the Day Care Center beside the venue. She was more excited and happier receiving the foods than her awards. I think even without those medals, she would be happy if I'll give her a feast at home, though. I'm happy how simple she is and of her achievements.
