If I am to redream my dream, I will always want to achieve the same objective. Life is a process of ups and downs, of fighting and surviving. It never came to my principle to take the shortcuts because life can only offer the best things when you worked hard for it. To never stay where you are to strive more.
The beginning:
Growing up with a lack of pressure from my family, I am a happy-go-lucky girl. Que sera, sera. Come what may. As to how life is beautiful, we cannot always accept that it can go slowly. As to the community, I lived dictated of how his girl should come out to be. As an only child, my parents had given me the authority to soar the depths of my potential and use it for the greater good. While the community we lived in dictated the standards this girl should be. Believe me, the happy-go-lucky me turned into someone who tried her best to achieve what is expected of her rather than living the life she wanted.
Breaking through:
At the age of 14, I saw how my friends bloom. Some bloom differently as I do, and of course, they bloomed faster as I do. As I stay timid and too afraid to try, too scared to raise my voice because the community that made me grew restricted me with only limited choices, I began breaking through. When my friends became too occupied with fighting over their happiness- they became rebels. On the other hand, I stood up and took the path, which is less take, and began cultivating and nurturing who I really am as a person.
Stepping out of my comfort zone, I told myself. If I am not doing it today, then when would it be. In the past, it was a dreadful imagination of me to go out, play a little more, and enjoy my youth, but now I am afraid I would pass by a child without living the most out of it.
Believe me when I said that writing became my escape. It's my stepping stone towards the life I wanted. I wrote several poems and began doing things as I wanted. I became someone that slowly uplifts and motivating others online because, in the past, no one dared to let me out. No one around my age understood why I have to stay pleasing the society that we belonged to.
When I first wrote my first content, it's about the common problems of friendship and entitled it "My Friends." Those moments I know that I no longer have real friends left for me but still managed to write a beautiful memoir of them. It made me cry and feel alone, but what matters the most is that I learned. I learned how to give people the right amount of trust and never depend on my happiness, and I did succeed.
How did I become the Lady Dreamer?
When I grew up into a fine lady, I began exploring how the world works and now living my life to the fullest. I now aspire to be at the help of society, instead of pleasing everybody. My drive to become a nurse helped me to develop humility and compassion t other people.
At 20, I know many things can happen soon, and I am living for it.
"To dream is not just to achieve your goals in life, but simply facing your fears and showing the world that the weakness you once have is now your strength that everyone loves."
You see, life will not offer us every time the goodness we have to know. We have to hurdle our way up and still fight for it. If things are not as good as we wanted to be, we never lost hope.
Be the lady dreamer who is not afraid to soar the horizon, and spread her wings after that. No matter how small, or big, simple or grand, all our dreams matter to us. We cannot always stay down. Believed you can do it because, in life, the hurdles you undergo equates to the learning you wanted to achieve.
