whatever you do is your responsibility. when you fail to achieve a dream, it is your responsibility. do not blame others for the failure that you have done. everything you do in your life, you can control everything.
therefore there is no reason for you to achieve your dreams. try to imagine, whether you are not bored by always looking for reasons. when other people ask, why don't you have a job?
You always have a reason by saying that your life is very busy with other things, so you don't have time to find work.
and sometimes you also say that you don't have the expertise so you don't dare to apply for a job. there is always a reason for you. as if you were a victim. even though failure is caused by yourself.
therefore don't always have a reason when you reach a dream. you won't know before you try it. and failure will most likely occur. but don't be quiet. do something so that what you want is achieved.