Hi, I am Arveno from Surabaya city. In this content i want to share about the day that i need to remember. This week is kinda harsh especially when my son is on Mid Term Exam. And my schedule is disorganized. Even though i still can work from everywhere but some of my daily schedule is missing like working out, breakfast, eating low calories and many more.
Like today, mostly this week i am drinking instan coffee in coffee stall near my son school because my son school just 2 hours to doing his exam. And it will be wasting my time in road if i am going back to home. And i just have under 1 hour being in my home and thats literally cannot doing anything and then need to pick up my son again. Thats why i just waiting near school. Why instant coffee? yes because there is this stall just provide instant coffee mostly. And i kinda need coffee to make my eyes not shut down. And this is not good since instant coffee is mostly contain sugar in it.
And what making worse is my son started to sick again. He started coughing and badly after the first day of exam. I think he still stress and nervous about his exam. I dont know why he afraid got bad result. I already talk to him i dont angry when he got bad result, i am angry if he is too lazy to study and too much procrastinate. It will make a bad habbit in his life. I dont want to him feel what i regret in my life since i was too much procrastinate. And some days the day got harsh too, my son still sick, my tire flat because of just bad luck. Don't know what the exact cause is. And need to paid doctor to consult about my son health which is the doctor said it just common flu. But, i dont know i feel that my son cough is not just common flu. But, yet we are all dont know what cause my son sick. What i am afraid is tubercolosis. But, it is kinda weird since we are all life together. At least me or my wife should got tubercolosis too if my son got Tubercolosis. And the symptomp is kinda different to get Tubercolosis. After complaining a lot in my heart and feel burden in my brain and heart, i think God gives me a great sign to be a grateful person.
Why Regret Something You Once Wanted???
This quotes is kinda stuck in my mind until today. Yeah, i was wanted life like this when i was in Highschool. Working as Gamer and freelancer that having much time to play with my son and doing it at home (even though the house still renting). I dont know why but i still cannot enjoying my life recently. Kinda burden and drowning to daily routine and feel stuck lately. Or maybe i need to be really gratefull and literally surrender myself to God about anything. Maybe i just overthinking about something that will not happened in the future. Like for example i am afraid that my son got severe pain especially like dengue fever or TBC or even worse like diabetic. It is like my fault if he got like that. Whereas i should thinking that it is what it is. Everything happened for a reason right. It is just like destiny. Did you guys ever feel the same like i did? Or it just me that too much overthinking??
