"I want to do too many things. In my little bits of free time, I never know what I should do."

I get like that too. I often find that I spend a lot of time trying to decide and then I don't end up doing anything and waste my whole day off.

"My life is a mess. I don't think this would change much if I had more time. I think I'm the problem."

I think that is the case for most of us but a lot of people don't want to admit it. I know that I cause many of my own problems but correcting those things is more difficult than it might sound. We are who we are and changing things isn't easy.

" I do meditate and I know it helps."

Haha I have never been all that good at it but I hear it works for a lot of people.