It's been 2 years since I lost my job because of Covid-19. Since then I have been faced with economic difficulties, and until now I still couldn't get any job yet.
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In the first year, I felt very difficult and tense, but now I feel like I'm used to dealing with this predicament, and slowly I have enjoyed it. Although sometimes I see my child still can't accept it. But I believe, if I continue to be patient and try, the day of victory will come to me. And pray that my family will be able to endure this hardship aswell.
There are many things that I have learned and learned, with the hope that what I am experiencing now can change me into a better person.
饾煆. 饾悎 饾悷饾悶饾悶饾惀 饾惀饾惃饾惏.
With my current lowliness, my eyesight has become low too. Now I see something below, which I might have stepped on in the past because I always held my head up and looked up. Also now, my heart has become very sensitive to other people's difficulties, because I have felt how it feels when we are faced with difficulties in life.
饾煇. 饾悎 饾悷饾悶饾悶饾惀 饾惉饾惌饾惈饾惃饾惂饾悹饾悶饾惈.
Because of the insults, reproaches, being considered low, worthless, even invisible from all the things that I have experienced have made and shaped me into a stronger and stronger person. And I realized that, I am nothing without money and possessions. Strength, anger is all just ego, pride, arrogance driven from the power of money that I have at that time. And all of that has blown me away.
饾煈. 饾悎 饾悷饾悶饾悶饾惀 饾悳饾悮饾惀饾惁.
I have nothing now, so I don't need to worry about anything. No need to worry when on a trip, no need to worry about leaving the house for a long time, fear of theft. I don't need to worry about losing property, I don't need to worry about losing my position or job, I don't need to worry about the business going bankrupt and I don't need to worry about losing anything.
Sleep feels easier and more restful, the feeling of stress that I often feel and now, I never feel it again. Life is much calmer than before. In the past many times I wanted to go and live on a deserted island with no inhabitants just to find peace. But now, I no longer need it because I feel just fine.
饾煉. 饾悎 饾悷饾悶饾悶饾惀 饾惁饾惃饾惈饾悶 饾悮饾惄饾惄饾惈饾悶饾悳饾悽饾悮饾惌饾悽饾惎饾悶 饾惃饾悷 饾悶饾惎饾悶饾惂 饾惌饾悺饾悶 饾惉饾惁饾悮饾惀饾惀饾悶饾惉饾惌 饾惌饾悺饾悽饾惂饾悹饾惉.
How I wasn't realize it, when I spend money on things that are not important like parties, drunkenness, buying things that are not important and end up in vain. Don't value money and think it's all small and trivial. In fact, the change are very valuable and many people work hard for it, hope and really need it and sometimes they couldn't even get it after the hard work. While at that time I had wasted it on useless things and now I feel how difficult it is to get the coins. Now I have understood, and have learned to respect others with the heart not with money and more can feel what they have felt.
饾煋. 饾悎 饾悷饾悶饾悶饾惀 饾悹饾惈饾悶饾悮饾惌.
Arrogant, ego, strong, weak, high, low, get up, fall insulted, humiliated, wasted, and been wasted, seen, nobody, sad, happy, complaining, grateful, appreciative and not expecting to be appreciated. So with that everything has become a provision for my life in carrying out life from today to the following days so that I become a much wiser human being and realize that everything we have is only temporary. Don't make wealth and throne a tool and turn us into someone we shouldn't be.
Experiences has been the best teacher in my life. I am grateful and I am very grateful for what I am facing and have right now.
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