ALHAMDULILLAH!!!!!
I am surprised you already learn to hide your feelings. You cry for your father but not front of him you cry alone.
My parents seldom said When you become parent then realize what is the feeling. It's true until you become Father or Mother you cannot feel it 100%
When you say i love you i feel i am the happiest and lucky father in the world.
Love you Maaaa
Missing you too
See i am not crying.....