UNEMPLOYED AND USELESS

Why is it that most of the people in our society have this damn stupid mindset that if you're unemployed, you have no goals in life, that you have no direction at all, and worst, you will never succeed?

That kind of mentality really sucks!

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I'm sorry for the words but I just have to let my feelings out regarding this matter. I'm affected, yes, because I am unemployed. It hurts me so deep every time I am judged because I have no stable job.

You know what, I am unemployed NOT because I am incapable or nobody would like to hire me. I AM UNEMPLOYED BECAUSE I CHOOSE TO.

I am a Bachelor's degree holder of Business Administration major in Finance and Treasury Management. I finished my studies in one of the prestigious university in the Philippines, Pamantasan ng Lungsod ng Maynila. I was a full scholar back then. I didn't have to pay even a single centavo for my tuition fee because I was able to maintain the university's standards when it comes to grades. Before, I dreamed of having a stable and high paying job and then climb up the corporate ladder to get even higher pay. So the moment I graduated from college, I applied for a job right away and got hired in less than a month after my graduation. I was only 19 years old that time. During those days, I am always making sure to give financial support to my family every month and I took the responsibility of paying for my younger sister's tuition fee. There are still other expenses aside from that but to make it short, what's left for me most of the time is only 1/4 of my take home pay. That went on for 4 years.

Then I felt tired. Not because of the work load but because of the situation. My salary was increasing but still, I wasn't able to even save money for myself. It waked me up to wonder that if this is what will happen to me for the rest of my life, I wouldn't be able to really enjoy life. Also, I felt like I'm not growing. I kept on doing same things every day, work for 5 and a half days a week, solve other people's problems, and so on. But I realized, I can do more than that, I have to do something better.

Until one day, my partner asked me to read a book. That booked opened my mind to greater possibilities. It inspired me to be who I really want to be, to catch my dreams and take the risks. It took me a year to have the courage to push through with what I want. The inner portion of me doesn't want to be an employee anymore but to become a successful entrepreneur, creating businesses, generating greater income while living my life to the fullest with the people I love. Then that was the time I decided to tender my resignation. Although I am aware of the consequences of my decisions, I took the risk to stand up for what I want to pursue in life.

Five months after I resigned, me and my partner were able to launch our business. I am proud of myself for that. I am happy and I am learning although it's never easy. But the sad part is that I cannot gain the full support of my family on this. I resigned because I have bigger dreams for the long run but my family and relatives doesn't think of it the same way. Well, most people actually. They belong to the people who believe that only having a stable job is the way to be successful. Now, they think that I my life has no more direction because I do not have a job. I'm useless because I can no longer provide financially for them. I tried to explain myself and my vision to them but it seems like it's not enough, maybe until such time that I have proven myself to them. I know they love me and they only want what's best for me but it's not the best of what I think for myself. That's what hurts me. It's painful to know that you are not supported on your decisions when you only want the best not just for you but for them as well. There are times when problems arise that they would suddenly bring out the fact that I have no job, I am not capable of helping so why bother to include me in solving our financial problem. Yes I already have a business, but it still not generating much income as of now. For that I can say that success doesn't come in an instant. We still have to work on it to succeed.

Anyway, I am just writing this to get my thoughts out. THIS IS JUST TEMPORARY. I won’t let this struggle define who I am for the rest of my life. I know there's a lot more challenges for me but this pain that I'm feeling right now is giving me more power and eagerness to succeed. The more other people will bring me down, the more I have the reason to stand firm and prove that I can do this. I will never lose faith in myself, in my dreams and most importantly, in Jesus, my God. I believe in my vision, in the business I am currently on, and in my decision. I SWEAR, I WILL NEVER QUIT. TIME WILL COME, PEOPLE WON’T SEE ME AS A USELESS PERSON AGAIN FOR I WILL BE MORE THAN CAPABLE OF ALL THE THINGS I AM INCAPABLE RIGHT NOW. SOMEDAY, I WILL BE ABLE TO GIVE MY FAMILY THE BEST OF EVERYTHING DESPITE OF THEIR DOUBTS ON ME.