It's been way too long since I took a break. Well, it's practically not a break, I was being a lazy-ass and also I noticed that maybe I got myself stuck into writer's block.
Every single time when I try to write something, like anything, I feel like I don't know anything or I don't know how to use my thoughts in my writing. Sometimes I get frustrated and irritated at myself. I'm still trying to get over this shitty thought in my head that just gave up, you won't go much further. Just do what you usually do.
And what do I usually do?
Sleep like some coma patient. Don't ever wake up.
People around me know better what my sleep habits are like.
So this was my life cycle past a couple of weeks. Sleep… Trying to do something… Gave up… Then slept again.
But now I think I have had enough. I have to do something about this mess. And here I am trying to take control over the wheel of my life and I start with this.
I have been drawing for a long time. And trust me when I say drawing can help you in many ways, emotionally and mentally.
When you start to draw something, the more you draw the more you get lost in your head. For me, it's like escaping reality and playing with the line, the colour and the shading and trying so damn hard just to give a perfect expression.
And also this is my fastest completed drawing. I usually took days to finish something, but this... I don’t know how but it came out perfectly. Just the way I wanted it to look and in the end, I got the feeling of satisfaction of fulfilling something which I thought I almost lost. I found something to keep me motivated and I think I will be fine in no time.
